Zora..woah woah woah! Derail that train of thought!
Find my gallery, guess my ethnicity.
*...waits five minutes*
Zora, I am in a similar boat to you, don't get me wrong there. I'm not a "wacko Jacko".
What I'm saying, is that there are good and bad of every ethnicity, but when it comes to ghettos, drugs, drive by shootings and other negative descriptions of urban environments, what ethnicity of people are they typically associated with?
About my comment "bringing grief on yourself", in your case, the redneck, is a dickhead, heck, seeing your facial photo and reading your posts, that guy would have to be a massive fool! To be honest, if there were more women like you in my immediate life, my life story might have a happier interlude.
But what I am saying, is that as people of colour, we're heavily scrutinised, it's always taken for granted that the behaviour of caucasions is "default" and any other behaviours are abnormal. Yet, we have a responsibility to not act in a way that we let ourselves be treated under the negative sterotypes that people have about us. That's why I don't "bling up", I don't shout and swear in public, I call my elders "sir and ms" if they're being helpful and respectable, I don't deal aggro, I don't get aggro back.
I mean, if I wanted to, I could go all gothic, and I do on occasion, but would that get me respect? Maybe if I was "down the hood", or wherever people think Carribean-Indians hang out, but I'm not.
We're professionals, regardless of our background, and we're human beings even further than that, despite our sexualities, our thoughts our dreams, our cultures, our heritages and inheritances, we're as mortal as everyone else and we bleed and are born and die as any person, white, black, purple, G.M, whatever the future brings.
So, all this bullcrap about black guys being bigger is nothing but a negative sterotype that is amusing only for those who pass over the line as far as I'm concerned. More than that, it's perpetuated because "if Caucasions are average, than their must be different nationalities that are bigger and smaller".
After all, there is a LPSGer here, (Happi Pappi) and he's got stick for being smaller than the supposed "norm" for African Americans and it has had an impact and it's saddening to think, that in a decade where your nationality may be more life-or-death than it was in the 60s, people still can get their sexual compatibility mixed up with their racial identity, it's horrible.
I've been down that road you talked about, it's taken me almost a decade (I'm 22) to come to terms with understanding who and what I am. I'm half Carribean-African half Carribean-Indian and do you know how rare that combination is? In some parts of London I'm an ethnic minority of an ethnic minority. I take physical features from both and so get grief from all sides at times, but instead of bringing attention to myself and taking action as bad as what they would expect me to be, I choose to be good, I choose to do the right thing. I have anger and hatred sometimes that could tear me asunder and I choose NEVER to pick up the sword in anger.
Goddamn, I'm almost crying in university typing this. Maybe I need to lay off the evangelical pills huh?
In short, fuck the morons, the idiots, the parasites and the fools, I am my own man, I carve my own path and God have mercy on anyone who tries to stand in my way.
And to end that post and go completely off topic.
AMEN!
