a lot of my body image issues actually started when i was growing up. especially there aren't many asians who have fuller frames like i do, people often viewed it in a totally backwards perspective. i matured really fast, as did my sister, except she stayed thin and inherited more of the height (5'7"). i, on the other hand, inherited the tits and ass and a little bit of the height (5'4").
growing up, i didn't fit in with my mom's friends' daughters who are all anorexic looking and flat-chested. however, my sister did because she's thin and they all praised her because was so much taller than all the little 5ft. girls. as sad as it is to say, my mom didn't have that same view about me. instead, she constantly critiqued my weight since i wasn't "normal" like her friends' daughters. she wasn't accepting that i had more meat on my bones, and she wanted to put me on diets so i could look like everyone else. i always refused.
i admit a lot of the things my mom said were blows to my self esteem during my teenage years, which is why it's taken me so long to accept myself the way i am. i used to hide my body behind baggy t-shirts, sports bras, and loose jeans. i looked like a tomboy and nobody knew i had breasts until my aunt finally took me bra shopping my senior year in high school. gradually over time i stopped sporting the frumpy look, and started wearing clothes that flattered my figure. soon after, i began noticing guys checking me out left and right.
i've come a long way from how i was during my teens. now that i'm older, i'm more accepting of my body the way it is and not the way my mom wanted me to be. til this day, she still rags on me about being a dress size 14 and keeps bitching that my tits are pouring out of my 36C bras. i understand that family is always going to be your worst critic. however, i'm happy i'm different and unique because it sets me apart from the rest. i love my tits and my ass, and i would never change that to become flat-chested with no ass and no figure.