I hate to admit it, but my boyfriend of over a year is just not cutting it for me. My story is the typical lost girl who gets her life back on track. I'm 20 years old, but as a teen I was a wild girl. I was really into the hip hop scene which lead me to sleep with quite a few black guys (not more than 10). All of whom were big, and while i never measured any, a lot seem twice the lenght and thickness of my boyfriend. My mom moved towns to live with her sister and since then I've become a rather good girl. I'm in College now doing Architecture so my life has changed quite a bit. Ok but enough with the life story an not into the sex. I met my bf when i now started college. He's a very cool, fun, smart guy. He doesn't know much about my past exploits, but he knows I wasn't a virgin...unlike him. I fell for him because i was so lonely when college started. Despite my past, I'm not a typical party girl, so I made little friends at first. However, upon making out with him the first time i realized how much smaller he was compared to my exes. He's about 5'', possibly less, and about 4.5'' around. Which I'd say is very small. I have many problems with this size. I used to love straddling my exes while we made out. However, with him it's almost pointless since I barely feel it. Another problem is that I used to love dirty dancing, aka grinding. Mainly due to the dick rubbing pussy contact. However, again sometimes while dancing with him, I don't even know if he's hard. Pardon the pun, but that is a huge contrast to dancing with other guys I knew. When i grind my ass on him at clubs, I simply never feel his penis. This has basically killed my fun in dancing. On the other hand, sex is both good and bad. I love him and we're very passionate and I do cum from penetration. But ofcourse sex has its problems. I think I've only had one vaginal orgasm with him and that was because I forcing his penis deeper inside and while squeezing my pussy really hard around his penis. With him, there are only two positions that pleasure me. Missionary and me on top riding him. Almost all others, I just don't feel him, or he's not long enough to do it properly. The worst by far is doggy style which was my previous favourite. I simply can not feel him in that position. Honestly while he penetrates me, I just don't know if he's hard, if he's fully in or what. It's hopeless. Now, does he know my feelings? Yes and No. He doesn't know how much bigger guys I've had and how much better they felt. But Yes he knows that some positions and acts, he doesn't provide much pleasure, but he may think its just me (which it honestly could be). I'm really sorry for the long post, but it has been bothering me a lot. What should I do? I do love him, and he cares so much about me. Despite my rantings, our sex life is not horrible as I cum almost everytime we have sex. However, he honestly doesn't fully satisfy me. Should I just learn to deal with it? Or should I end it now because it doesn't make sense continueing if he doesn't fully satisfy me? Should I make him use dildo's, penis extensions or strap ones? Or is that just being shallow and selfish?