@MisterB @ipex thank you for taking time reply me. Trust me you are helping me a lot.
I texted him happy birthday. He replied immediately and said I am the first one who remembered. I said I didn’t forget it to remember. I wished him to be always happy. He wished me the same and he said we will celebrate it on my company beach party.
He offered if he can help me with my cat since I’m staying at friends’ house to look after their dog. I said thanks , I can handle it even though it’s tiring.
since the birthday texting, no more communication! On his birthday, I visited psychiatrist as my therapist thinks the same. I cried a lot during the session. He didn’t proscribe any medication and told me to continue with psychologist.
I had beer with a friend and there it clicked me! I remembered my previous ex boyfriend. We broke up and I remembered how much relieved I felt the day he moved out. Of course I was sad but I felt relieved and excited about single life. This is exactly how my boyfriend is feeling now. Sad about leaving me but relieved and excited.
As he doesn’t have any friends , he is texting me to share his daily experiences. But I think he also realized that he should move on and stop texting me and that’s the reason I believe he doesn’t text anymore.
@ipex yes I also believe he is narcissists. He might even say “ why am the one who texts first and stops contacting me! Or he simply started dating and he doesn’t even think about me!
I am crying less. I started hurt less. Yes I miss and love him but I started to accept that he won’t come back and we will not be together again.
This Sunday, he will come to the company party. He might even change his mind coz the weather is really really hot here. So if he comes I will see him on Sunday night.
I wanna observe how he will act in front of many people who loves seeing as couple.
whether he treats me as friend or as boyfriend, this time I wanna talk to him that I can’t be his friend.
I’ll tell him that “ I am not moving on but it’s time to let you go! I might not text you good morning or good night but you are always in my mind and if you’d ever call and needed me I’d be there! But I need to focus on myself from now on! It’s hard! I can’t deny that I don’t miss you! I wish I could talk to you. But I know where I stand and I know my worth and importance! You’ll always be here with me and my heart will be open for you!”
It will be so hard and he is a narcissist, he won’t even understand my feelings.
Yeah it’s so hard but I need to accept that we will become history to each other!