madame_zora
Sexy Member
Dammit, am I going to end up liking you again? *shudders* the thought of it.DeeBlackthorne said:
Dee,
You didn't owe me that, and I wasn't asking. I'd hope you'd know that my objection was to the idea that you were making it your responsibility to inform the board of what I do when I'm not here. If you don't know that's whacky, then you just don't.
As it turns out, you've managed to ignore the now six or seven times I've told you I don't mind, have at it. So here it is once more- I DON'T MIND, HAVE AT IT.
As flattering as all this attention is, the fact remains that I DO have a life outside of here. It is also true that there are times when I talk about something happening here somewhere else. So does everyone. We are not the Masons or a secret society. However, I would not reveal anything that a person has been brave enough to share here, in our "confidance" as it were, even though this is an open board. I think the things shared here are special and I try to keep it that way.
I knew about your journey through sexual discovery long ago, and I applaud you for taking the time out and giving yourself permission to experience those things. I have sometimes found your more recent declarations of "I'm heterosexual" to be a little nauseating, but not because I think you're not. I think you are the only person qualified to know what your preferences are, not anyone else. It just sounds like you're still trying to convince yourself though, because it's just not a thing most straight people say much. Maybe you are, maybe you're not, but if you're going to scrutinize ME, as you've announced as your intention, then you can hardly be surprised that I would do it to you. You must admit there has never been a time that I've tried to "reach into your psyche" unless you're inserting yourself into my life. Feel free to do it, just know who I am.
Oy vey. I have gender identification issues. Most days I wish I was a man who fucks men. It's been pretty consistant most of my life, but I don't want it *quite enough* to get surgery. I know about not fitting into a mold all the time. Some days I'm fine with being a woman, usually it's more of a societal thing- I hate being disregarded as a human being because I have tits. So then I hate having a vagina, then I hate being a woman, then the whole fantasy thing takes over and nothing will really do it for me but a nice shiny asshole, haha.
Sexuality is a very fluid thing for a lot of people and I think confusing issues like this are what this site is all about. Even nonsense threads (like this) have a way of turning into something decent where free speech is protected because most of us here are hungry for knowledge, growth and the feeling of being understood, perhaps ultimately accepted.
I'll never understand what happened here or why you went off so hard so fast. Maybe it's just one of life's mysteries. If that was the worst thing anyone ever said about me, I'd consider myself a lucky woman. I thought answering your queries would be enough, I was disappointed that you chose to make a thread about it, but I can always find idiotic things to say if that's what you want. I think you wear your heart on your sleeve sometimes, but honestly, I just don't get it. That's okay, you and I just see things differently I suppose.
