Ok, so.. Had a bf, got dumped, got back together, shit happen, had to say goodbye, he's now happy with a new bf. and I'm not doing so well a year later. Trying to get back out there, and..well. i just cant seem to get fully hard. Recently a Friend Finally got brave enough to "play" some, and i was thinking i was gunna get hard, then out of nervousness he made a comment that just sent my mind tailspinning away. My ego is just shot to all hell, i know I'm depressed, but I'm also still horny and just want to have a good time under the sheets with someone again. I have a friend visiting from out of state in a few weeks and i know he wants to play some, hes made some comments about it and i dont want to disappoint him by turning him away. an i would really like to give him that night too. Im sure my reasons seem odd to some of you but i just want to be with someone, even for just a night and know we both had a good time and got what we needed. I wanna try Viagra, but dont want to spend money on a dr app or a full prescription I'm sure my insurance wouldn't cover anyway i know my biggest problem is mental.. i just need a little push/help to get me going and i would probably be fine. I tried viagra before that a co worker gave me .. worked DAMN well. anyone local who uses it, Note me. would like to talk.