Here's what's going on in my life right now. Well first let me tell you what was going on three years ago. I was in love. I was a junior in high school and I met a guy who made me want to get married and he seemed gay but he wasn't (or so he said) so basically I was in love with a straight man, but I couldn't just leave him alone because he told me to go away. honestly i stalked him a bit but that was a long time ago so there's no need to hash on that. so three years go by and haven't heard from him, because by law i couldn't contact him for a year. so there i was that night. i saw him at a GAY club (i knew he was gay!) and i said hi. long story short we had sex. and did again the next day. and the next. we've had a lot of sex. i've swallowed about ten of his loads over the past 4 days. he's versatile so i took a cock for the first time, up until now i've been a strict top. he wanted a rimming so i did that for the first time too. so here's the catch. he was just in it for casual sex. but i still love him, i never stopped. the sex is amazing. and i feel like marrying him. last night he gave me the best blow job of my life, 20 minutes long, and as i bred him, i said "i love you" last night was so good it was a bit painful but it was worth it a million times over. i want to try to at least make him my boyfriend. but how do i ask especially with the history we've had?