Here it is after 2:00 in the morning and I was suppose to goto bed an hour ago lol. Just finished watching "Make The Yuletide Gay". Adorable movie, funny, cute, cute boy, the usual I suppose. Just seems every time I watch one of these movies it gets me SO down. I want what they have more than I can express. I hate that these movies make it seem so easy to meet and fall in love with someone, or maybe it is and I'm just too blah to realize it lol. *shrug*
Then again, it seems incredibly difficult to actually locate someone looking for "love". Hell, the craigslist ads for Romance are .0000001% the size of the anonymous hookup list. (No, I don't expect to find it there, but I peek from time to time!) Honestly I'm not really proactive about it, I guess.
I feel weird about posting my whole life online, via dating sites or facebook. I put a few things on here, but nothing that would interest a person in a relationship...I don't know, but I'm not gonna be bar bum either. Really just a place to have sex or find someone for it. Craigslist in Person lol. I'll open a bar and call it that. Would just be nice to find someone who wants to care and be cared about. Not who can "lick your sweaty balls! make me swallow your load and be your bitch"; taken directly from a post on CL...
Eh, anyway...I'm just ranting. If I try to goto sleep without getting it off my mind, it will eat me away. Maybe I care too much about it? Isn't it a basic human need though? To Be Loved? Or is it just some stupid underlying mechanic to progress the human race (not that I'm in the biz of procreating lol) Meh.
Honestly, I would much rather talk to a therapist about my many issues, as I'm sure my lack of proactiveness is more about rejection and putting myself out there than just dating websites and facebook, the fact I've never said the words "I'm Gay" to anyone. People know, but I've never actually said it. (i fear my might cry, idk why lol) Haven't told my parents, even though I know they know. And my list goes on, but...therapy is $ and you can choose to read or not. After all, you aren't getting paid for it
Well, for those that have a drink (wish I did), here's to wishing life were like a gay themed movie [for we, apparently, few who wish for it]
End Rant. Good Night.
Or Morning...Whichever
Thanks for letting me vent (if you made it to this point lol)
Then again, it seems incredibly difficult to actually locate someone looking for "love". Hell, the craigslist ads for Romance are .0000001% the size of the anonymous hookup list. (No, I don't expect to find it there, but I peek from time to time!) Honestly I'm not really proactive about it, I guess.
I feel weird about posting my whole life online, via dating sites or facebook. I put a few things on here, but nothing that would interest a person in a relationship...I don't know, but I'm not gonna be bar bum either. Really just a place to have sex or find someone for it. Craigslist in Person lol. I'll open a bar and call it that. Would just be nice to find someone who wants to care and be cared about. Not who can "lick your sweaty balls! make me swallow your load and be your bitch"; taken directly from a post on CL...
Eh, anyway...I'm just ranting. If I try to goto sleep without getting it off my mind, it will eat me away. Maybe I care too much about it? Isn't it a basic human need though? To Be Loved? Or is it just some stupid underlying mechanic to progress the human race (not that I'm in the biz of procreating lol) Meh.
Honestly, I would much rather talk to a therapist about my many issues, as I'm sure my lack of proactiveness is more about rejection and putting myself out there than just dating websites and facebook, the fact I've never said the words "I'm Gay" to anyone. People know, but I've never actually said it. (i fear my might cry, idk why lol) Haven't told my parents, even though I know they know. And my list goes on, but...therapy is $ and you can choose to read or not. After all, you aren't getting paid for it
Well, for those that have a drink (wish I did), here's to wishing life were like a gay themed movie [for we, apparently, few who wish for it]
End Rant. Good Night.
Or Morning...Whichever
Thanks for letting me vent (if you made it to this point lol)