madame_zora
Sexy Member
EB, going through what you are, I am sure you are well aware of how many spouses leave ther partners over such an illness. So does your wife, she's not an idiot. This was something I learned about more recently when I was reading a site that supports partners of very ill people and it astounded and dumbfounded me that people would do such a thing as leave someone helpless, but it seems it is not so rare.
You are not that kind of person, you are one who is staying. Congratulate yourself for that, for keeping your love for your wife foremost in your mind as you help see to her well-being. Your job doesn't quit during restricted hours and there is no way you could NOT be feeing under pressure. How could anyone judge you who hasn't walked in your shoes? I could not, in fact I am relieved to hear that you've found some way- ANY way to maintain a small portion of selfhood during a most difficult experience.
What will be will be, you have no idea about the outcome of your situation. What you do know is that if you, the caregiver, give out, there will be greater consequences than if you are technically unfaithful. I would imagine your wife would rather have you getting some sexual satisfaction on the side but staying with her, than have you collapsing from a nervous breakdown and not being able to help her at all. I wouldn't say a word, you both have plenty on your plate.
You are not that kind of person, you are one who is staying. Congratulate yourself for that, for keeping your love for your wife foremost in your mind as you help see to her well-being. Your job doesn't quit during restricted hours and there is no way you could NOT be feeing under pressure. How could anyone judge you who hasn't walked in your shoes? I could not, in fact I am relieved to hear that you've found some way- ANY way to maintain a small portion of selfhood during a most difficult experience.
What will be will be, you have no idea about the outcome of your situation. What you do know is that if you, the caregiver, give out, there will be greater consequences than if you are technically unfaithful. I would imagine your wife would rather have you getting some sexual satisfaction on the side but staying with her, than have you collapsing from a nervous breakdown and not being able to help her at all. I wouldn't say a word, you both have plenty on your plate.