Hi so I've been wanting to hook up with guys for a few years and always end up chickening out, however, yesterday I ended up chickening out so close to actually meeting him at his place after talking a bit on grindr.
I was supposed to go over to his place and suck his dick, which I really wanted to do, and I ended up getting an uber and about half way there (5 minute drive total) and even ended up bringing a condom and lube in my jacket pocket just incase he wanted to fuck me. But I ended up asking the driver to drop me off at a store on the way to his place and told the guy that something came up and couldn't come by.
My question is, why do I keep chickening out? How do I stop myself from chickening out and actually fully go through with it, I know I want to. A lot of people tell me to meet a guy normally and start dating him or whatever to become more comfortable, but that isn't really my thing, I'd much rather just hook up.
Did anyone else here experience this and how did you finally push yourself to actually fully go through with it?
I was supposed to go over to his place and suck his dick, which I really wanted to do, and I ended up getting an uber and about half way there (5 minute drive total) and even ended up bringing a condom and lube in my jacket pocket just incase he wanted to fuck me. But I ended up asking the driver to drop me off at a store on the way to his place and told the guy that something came up and couldn't come by.
My question is, why do I keep chickening out? How do I stop myself from chickening out and actually fully go through with it, I know I want to. A lot of people tell me to meet a guy normally and start dating him or whatever to become more comfortable, but that isn't really my thing, I'd much rather just hook up.
Did anyone else here experience this and how did you finally push yourself to actually fully go through with it?