Classmate...

Discussion in 'Relationships, Discrimination, and Jealousy' started by D_bvj01dnl, Jan 2, 2010.

  1. D_bvj01dnl

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    [First, i'm a guy, just when i created this..what'sthe word...ID?!..i thought it was easier to write into a bigdick forum under the pseudonym of a woman... :) and i don't live in paris..:D)

    So...i have always in love with girls...up till some months ago i couldn't imagine being in love with a guy...Sex yes, love no..( and therefore kiss neither) So i didn't really know what i was...Most of the women didn't turn me on (tho i still kinda like MILFs, i think they're hot but everytime i watch straight porn with milfs included, i concentrate on the guy...gay side of bisexuality??) , and still i only fell in love with women...until one day i realised i wanted (and still want...) to kiss my classmate...

    so now i fucking don't know what's happening...guess i'm in the big-accepting-that-i-am-actually-gay thing.....And you know what is crap? That i KNOW he's gay ( hanging around with girls all the time, looking quite good, still have never had a girlfriend, didn't even kiss a girl, taking pics of himself all the time, the way he talks, loves clothes, his movements, everything...) but he doesn't seem to be into me...Why can't he fucking accept that he is gay?!?!

    The day before tomorrow we were at the same party, and he told me that he just realised that he is into our party-biatch classmate ( rly pretty girl, kisses at least 5 guys and some girls in every party after she gets drunk, but outside parties she's really clever, straight A-s all the time, etc...)
    So when he told me that he's into her...I...so it just felt so bad, and know i'm here, rabbiting (is this the correct word to what i'm doing right now? im not english or american or whatever..) to a bunch of 18+ ppl who don't even know me..and i don't even know if i posted into the right forum....

    This acutally is quite my coming-out..i can't tell this to anyone in person, everybody would just think..that...meh..you know, the prejudices of the gay thing, everything...but i don't want to change.

    bah...i had to write all this down..thanks for all who have read it...
     
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    omg you're hot. (sorry, had to write this first, just checked you pics...)

    Thanks for the response, really, it felt so good that someone actually read all that babbling i wrote...And i really like this riddle-like way you write. thanks a lot. :)
     
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