Closeted And Virgin. Anyone?

[EricGarcia1]

I've had gay sex. Typically a bottom but I never being f anally. Just oral. Has anyone experiencing the same thing?

 

[OKCLane]

You’ve had gay sex. Identify as a bottom but have never been fucked.
Does this mean you’ve topped?
Or, that you’ve only had oral sex?
If the latter is true, did you suck or get sucked? Perhaps both?
Why do you identify as a bottom?
I think the normal course for most of us was to begin with oral sex and add intercourse later. Just my opinion.
Sounds normal to me.

 

[EricGarcia1]

I've only suck, I never put a penis inside of me. I love dicks more than ass. I've topped before. Didn't like it as much. I dreamed a lot about getting fucked and its all I ever wanted. But everytime I wanna do It I canceled and disappoint another guy. I don't know, partially, it is because the fact that I'm closetted and discreet, I have not have as many experience in sex, geographically not at the right place on earth perhaps or maybe I haven't found the right guy.

The thing is, I'm 27 and I think its late haha!! Lets just hope I fond my guy.

You’ve had gay sex. Identify as a bottom but have never been fucked.
Does this mean you’ve topped?
Or, that you’ve only had oral sex?
If the latter is true, did you suck or get sucked? Perhaps both?
Why do you identify as a bottom?
I think the normal course for most of us was to begin with oral sex and add intercourse later. Just my opinion.
Sounds normal to me.[/QUOT

 

[OKCLane]

Never too late to pursue your dreams/goals.
Don’t give up.
At the same time be honest with prospective partners and don’t stand them up. Tell guys you’d like help exploring anal stimulation and that penetration is down the road and in the future. This way you’ll attract guys who are willing to work with you. It will require honesty.

 

[EricGarcia1]

Never too late to pursue your dreams/goals.
Don’t give up.
At the same time be honest with prospective partners and don’t stand them up. Tell guys you’d like help exploring anal stimulation and that penetration is down the road and in the future. This way you’ll attract guys who are willing to work with you. It will require honesty.

I don’t know. But what I definitely know is that I like guys. I am gay. I bet its hard to admit that in the real world. I’ve got some friends in the past pinching my cheeks and said I’m cute. They’re straight as hell (at least I think they are) but I never go further.
That was 10 years ago and I never met them again. Several occasion in the toilet where guys, keep staring at my dick but I covered it and move away as fast as I could although I enjoyed it.

I guess, raised in a religious family makes me act that way. Although I am not religious at all like the rest of my family. I drink, party a lot. Yes, I am a muslim.

On my father side of the family, every family has a gay/trans guy except for ours. Its been a weird relief for my family not to have one in us. Its weird. Cause I know thats not true. I’m very much gay and I just don’t have the balls to admit it. I think after all the sex with women made me less ballsy. Lol.

And I also live in that part of the world where nudity doesn’t exist. Not in a locker room, not in a shower houses, even need to wear shorts provided by the massage parlor to get massages.

Do I wanna get married to a guy, yes. Do I wanna have kids with the guy, yes. But I never really fuck or being fucked by a guy. And my oral adventure was nearly 20 years ago and it was my first and last! I’m not a skilled gay. I’m closeted, virgin, afraid, fag.

I bet you all out there hate to be with a person like me. Unskilled. I bet the reason why I like small dick was because I tried fucking my ass with a dick shaped soap I got from Thailand and it hurt so bad that I actually skipped all the big cock porns in the playlist. I’m so fucked up. I don’t know where I’m going with this, might as well just marry a girl and never look back.

 

[OKCLane]

I don’t know. But what I definitely know is that I like guys. I am gay. I bet its hard to admit that in the real world. I’ve got some friends in the past pinching my cheeks and said I’m cute. They’re straight as hell (at least I think they are) but I never go further.
That was 10 years ago and I never met them again. Several occasion in the toilet where guys, keep staring at my dick but I covered it and move away as fast as I could although I enjoyed it.

I guess, raised in a religious family makes me act that way. Although I am not religious at all like the rest of my family. I drink, party a lot. Yes, I am a muslim.

On my father side of the family, every family has a gay/trans guy except for ours. Its been a weird relief for my family not to have one in us. Its weird. Cause I know thats not true. I’m very much gay and I just don’t have the balls to admit it. I think after all the sex with women made me less ballsy. Lol.

And I also live in that part of the world where nudity doesn’t exist. Not in a locker room, not in a shower houses, even need to wear shorts provided by the massage parlor to get massages.

Do I wanna get married to a guy, yes. Do I wanna have kids with the guy, yes. But I never really fuck or being fucked by a guy. And my oral adventure was nearly 20 years ago and it was my first and last! I’m not a skilled gay. I’m closeted, virgin, afraid, fag.

I bet you all out there hate to be with a person like me. Unskilled. I bet the reason why I like small dick was because I tried fucking my ass with a dick shaped soap I got from Thailand and it hurt so bad that I actually skipped all the big cock porns in the playlist. I’m so fucked up. I don’t know where I’m going with this, might as well just marry a girl and never look back.

Soap up your ass is not a great idea. Soap is typically an irritant so it doesn’t surprise me that you had a bad experience.
I know your location and family impacts things greatly. I don’t know if counseling is available but I think it would help you come to terms with things.
My strongest advice is to seek counseling. Everyone has a matching heart. Don’t give up.

 

[EricGarcia1]

Soap up your ass is not a great idea. Soap is typically an irritant so it doesn’t surprise me that you had a bad experience.
I know your location and family impacts things greatly. I don’t know if counseling is available but I think it would help you come to terms with things.
My strongest advice is to seek counseling. Everyone has a matching heart. Don’t give up.

I don’t think its available here. Sometimes I think about migrating to a more gay friendly country. But I’m not sure if that’s gonna solve my problem. I don’t know. OKCLane, you’ve been wonderful. I would feel worst if I haven’t had this conversation with you. Thanks man.

 

[OKCLane]

I don’t think its available here. Sometimes I think about migrating to a more gay friendly country. But I’m not sure if that’s gonna solve my problem. I don’t know. OKCLane, you’ve been wonderful. I would feel worst if I haven’t had this conversation with you. Thanks man.

I’m pleased to have helped. It’s only because I’ve been in your position before. Perhaps you might look online for a support group? I wish a future filled with happiness for you. This site is filled with terrific members who have tremendous insight and advice. Keep us posted and be safe.

 

[EricGarcia1]

I’m pleased to have helped. It’s only because I’ve been in your position before. Perhaps you might look online for a support group? I wish a future filled with happiness for you. This site is filled with terrific members who have tremendous insight and advice. Keep us posted and be safe.

I’m pretty blessed to have found this group accidentally. The naked pictures of men are good but the support from guys like you meant a lot more. I will. I’d love to hear your story tho. If its personal, I understand. I just love to hear more familiar situation like mine. It keeps me going for some reason.

 

[OKCLane]

I’m pretty blessed to have found this group accidentally. The naked pictures of men are good but the support from guys like you meant a lot more. I will. I’d love to hear your story tho. If its personal, I understand. I just love to hear more familiar situation like mine. It keeps me going for some reason.

My story is long and convoluted as is true of most guys (I would guess). It would also be off topic from your original post.
If you have specific questions I’ve been quite candid in my previous posts on LPSG and will respond as I’m able. It may be better done in messages and you are welcome to send me a note anytime.