Can anyone share experiences of "coming out of the closet?". How long was it from when you realized that you were gay till when you revealed it? How did your friends and family react? How did it change you? Are there any regrets? Did you lose friends or create problems for your family?
I always knew I was gay - never any question about it. And I did not grow up with any anti-gay feeling in the family, not beyond thoughtless "he's a
nice boy" comments, pretty tame for the generation. Once I realized what the word meant, I was like, "Oh, okay then," and carried on.
I came out when I was 19, once I'd moved away to university. It can be helpful to have a separate support system in place just in case things do go worst case scenario. My sister asked me first, flat out, when we on our own. But then one night I asked my parents if we could turn the TV off cause I needed to talk to them. There were minor tears from Mum, along the lines of "It's a difficult life" (my response, "what do you know about it?") and my Dad asked "Are you're sure it's not just peer pressure because you know a lot of gay people?" (my response, "buh?")
Basically, after a very short time of acclimatisation, everything was fine. They both made every effort to support me and not react badly to anything. Now they treat my boyfriend exactly the same way they treat my sister's husband. Not that I expected any different.
I will be 50 soon and have not come out of the closet. This does not mean I haven't told a few people. But for me..Its been a very heavy weight to bear...However, in my case..I do not think that comming outof the closet will lighten my burden...as I really would like to have a wife..kids...(It's just the idea of sex with a woman..brings on a lot of aniety...anyway..just thought I would say my 3 cents before calling it a night...hope this imput helps
Forgive me if this sounds patronising or insensitive, but this sounds very sad. If it's such a heavy weight to bear, why not leave it behind? If you've got to 50 and haven't yet got the wife and kids you so crave, then clearly there's something in your way. You'd do well to confront what that is.
There's a TV show called
Brothers & Sisters, which features both a young and openly gay man and an older, closeted gay man. The latter came out to the former, tearful for feeling like he wasted his life by not having the courage to honest about who he really was all along.
I came out when I was 18 to my sister first, who was incredibly supportive which gave me the courage to talk to my mother. This is probably the best thing to do, talk to a close friend or a family member who may be more likely to be unfazed by your situation.
Although it's not the way I did it, I would actually suggest the exact opposite. If you come out to a complete stranger, then it's a chance to get used to hearing the words coming out of your mouth, and to a person whose opinion matters nothing to you. Basically like you've done here. Once you're accustomed to being able to say it without choking or crying or freaking out, then go ahead and say it to the people who actually matter to you.
(matt's comments are good advice with regard to employment - I was given the same advice many years ago when working for a large firm and I saw with my own eyes how the office 'gays' were treated. I was told purely to protect my chances on climbing the ladder in the company and I found it to be very true that it would have affected my advancement - which is a very sad state of affairs, neverless it was the case)
I have never worked at a job where I didn't know in advance they would be perfectly fine with it. I make no bones about it on my resume, I make no bones about it in interviews. I don't walk in waving rainbow flags and singing "I Will Survive" but neither do I hide it or make it a big deal. It simply is. If they can't handle it, I'll know straight away, and I'll move on to somebody who isn't a homophobic ass.