Cale: I honestly didn't know where else to post this. I tried looking through Google for gay/questioning support forums, but all the ones I could find were littered with immature posts from high school-age kids along the lines of anal probing techniques, etc... I'm a healthy, active 18-year-old male who is coming to terms with the fact that I might be homosexual...and it is both frightening and confusing at the same time. In fact, this is the first time I have ever confessed this in public -- I'm just thankful that I can remain anonymous here on the internet. The thing is, I don't really feel homosexual. I mean, yes, it's true that every single fantasy I have ever jacked off to has been a gay one, and it's true that I've had these feelings for as long as I can remember, even before I orgasmed for the first time, and it's true that I act a little effiminate at times (though not overtly). But I have always longed to fall in love with a beautiful, intelligent woman, and raise a family with her. I've even fallen in love with a few girls over the years. I do get turned on by the sight of a beautiful woman! I do find myself staring at girls' breasts for far longer than I should be! But just the thought of actually having intercourse with a woman is...kind of awkward. I don't know what to do. My friends and family are obviously starting to take some subtle hints, since I've never dated in my entire life and a wonderful, intelligent female friend of mine is starting to get flirtatious with me and I'm not even winking back at her. Basically, what it comes down to is, I don't want to be gay. I want to lead the stereotypical straight life. I want to fall in love with a woman, and I want to be able to fantasize about women and enjoy life with them. I honestly can't see myself in a true relationship with another guy -- I don't feel psychologically gay. Of course, my penis says otherwise... Please help me. Has anyone else ever had these strange, conflicting feelings? At the very least, can someone offer me advice on my situation? I'm starting to feel like it's all hopeless for me.