For those that do not know me, this is a brief introduction to my story and why this post requires your advice.
I was always a naive and innocent boy, who stupidly believed he would fall in love with a girl and it would all work out. But when I met this girl, she messed me about and tore my personality to shreds for 3 years. Yet, I've never had a gf. That is how bad she had me wrapped around her little finger.
Anyway, I came out of this battle very mentally scarred only this Christmas. Search up my other threads for more details. Basically though, right now I am still recovering and doing much better. My head is clear and I am noticing girls I would have never noticed when I only thought about the other. Now, here is my problem... well... situation.
I've met a girl. Rather, I know of a girl. Lol. No girl that I can remember have I ever felt such a huge immediate attraction to. I think she is beautiful, and her outward signals make her seem like such a nice genuine person (trust me I can see them a mile off where I come from).
She is in one of my lectures. Just after Christmas I started having these lectures, I did notice her but I never noticed I liked her as I was still wrestling my other issues. But as the weeks have gone on I've realised I REALLY wish I could talk to her. I only see her once a week for an hour, and I cannot really talk to her at that time. Last week I really noticed her, I couldn't stop looking at her and I could only see the back of her head. Walking back I couldn't resist turning around because she was behind me, I think she noticed.
Yet, even though she lives next to me, she follows me back from the lecture every Wednesday I cannot do it. I just have no self-confidence. It is a 2-way road imo and that is she either has a bf or she wouldn't like me. I've never had anyone care for me, and my self-confidence and spirit is in tatters. I can see the logic in saying, what's going to happen? Just talk to her. I cannot do that, it is not physically possible for me. I always wait for the right opportunity. If she sat next to me I might take the chance, but not walking home. Not unless she actually smiled at me to come over.
Yet I do not know if I will see her again after the next 2 weeks. We only have 2 more weeks of lectures left, then I could never see her again.
I believe in pre-set paths, but I would do anything to find out she actually liked me. It is quite bizarre how strong this attraction is when I have never spoken to her as well.
Any advice? Don't just tell me to go for it either, it really wouldn't happen. I just needed to air this frustration.
I was always a naive and innocent boy, who stupidly believed he would fall in love with a girl and it would all work out. But when I met this girl, she messed me about and tore my personality to shreds for 3 years. Yet, I've never had a gf. That is how bad she had me wrapped around her little finger.
Anyway, I came out of this battle very mentally scarred only this Christmas. Search up my other threads for more details. Basically though, right now I am still recovering and doing much better. My head is clear and I am noticing girls I would have never noticed when I only thought about the other. Now, here is my problem... well... situation.
I've met a girl. Rather, I know of a girl. Lol. No girl that I can remember have I ever felt such a huge immediate attraction to. I think she is beautiful, and her outward signals make her seem like such a nice genuine person (trust me I can see them a mile off where I come from).
She is in one of my lectures. Just after Christmas I started having these lectures, I did notice her but I never noticed I liked her as I was still wrestling my other issues. But as the weeks have gone on I've realised I REALLY wish I could talk to her. I only see her once a week for an hour, and I cannot really talk to her at that time. Last week I really noticed her, I couldn't stop looking at her and I could only see the back of her head. Walking back I couldn't resist turning around because she was behind me, I think she noticed.
Yet, even though she lives next to me, she follows me back from the lecture every Wednesday I cannot do it. I just have no self-confidence. It is a 2-way road imo and that is she either has a bf or she wouldn't like me. I've never had anyone care for me, and my self-confidence and spirit is in tatters. I can see the logic in saying, what's going to happen? Just talk to her. I cannot do that, it is not physically possible for me. I always wait for the right opportunity. If she sat next to me I might take the chance, but not walking home. Not unless she actually smiled at me to come over.
Yet I do not know if I will see her again after the next 2 weeks. We only have 2 more weeks of lectures left, then I could never see her again.
I believe in pre-set paths, but I would do anything to find out she actually liked me. It is quite bizarre how strong this attraction is when I have never spoken to her as well.
Any advice? Don't just tell me to go for it either, it really wouldn't happen. I just needed to air this frustration.
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