Confession

[13788]

H4xXx0rzj00: ive come to confess something to you all.

i was a poster previously to this site, and gave a fake size, obviously larger than i actually am. I am 6" even, but said i was larger.

confessing this way seems so much easiar than actually confessing through my actually name, but id also request that if someone actually does know how to find out who i am, and does so, please do not say. i havent posted on my other name in some time, and dont plan to, but regardless, id prefer to be left unknown in this way.

now, the other reason im posting is for advice. ive had an obsession with having a giant penis for some time now, so i kinda posted here with a fake background and stuff to kinda see what it would be like...

im not gay, but i really want to have a giant penis. i would be happy with the title of having the biggest penis in the world, even if it meant i couldnt ever have sex with anyone. recently, my obsession has gotten bad to a point where if i see a penis in like, porn or something, i get angry and cant watch the porn anymore because i want to be twice as big as the person in the porno.

6" is enough, everyone and everything says its ok. ive been told by a few women im the best sex theyve ever had. i dont want that tho, i would rather be the biggest theyve ever had.

i dont know...i dont want this mentality...its kinda selfish, and seems to get worse as my life goes on. i dont know...

 

[Ineligible]

Well, H4xXx0rzj00, I think you've made a good start by confessing the truth, even if you can't yet quite bury your old name completely.

Often a feeling of penile inadequacy is a symptom of a more general insecurity or lack of self-esteem. What do you think?

 

[madame_zora]

Originally posted by H4xXx0rzj00@Jul 3 2005, 06:55 AM
ive come to confess something to you all.

i was a poster previously to this site, and gave a fake size, obviously larger than i actually am. I am 6" even, but said i was larger.

confessing this way seems so much easiar than actually confessing through my actually name, but id also request that if someone actually does know how to find out who i am, and does so, please do not say. i havent posted on my other name in some time, and dont plan to, but regardless, id prefer to be left unknown in this way.

now, the other reason im posting is for advice. ive had an obsession with having a giant penis for some time now, so i kinda posted here with a fake background and stuff to kinda see what it would be like...

im not gay, but i really want to have a giant penis. i would be happy with the title of having the biggest penis in the world, even if it meant i couldnt ever have sex with anyone. recently, my obsession has gotten bad to a point where if i see a penis in like, porn or something, i get angry and cant watch the porn anymore because i want to be twice as big as the person in the porno.

6" is enough, everyone and everything says its ok. ive been told by a few women im the best sex theyve ever had. i dont want that tho, i would rather be the biggest theyve ever had.

i dont know...i dont want this mentality...its kinda selfish, and seems to get worse as my life goes on. i dont know...

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I'm going to say something very blunt here. Wish in ine hand, shit in the other. You have the penis you have, period. I don't care what size penis you want or how desperate the desire, it ain't so! The sooner you face reality, the sooner you can have a healthy life. The longer you engage in fantasies about the impossible, the more time you waste. I can't will myself to have white skin, you will never have the biggest penis on the earth, Tough shit.

Please people, get comfortable with who you are and learn to recognise what is and is not possible to change.

 

[hippyscum]

to me you just seem crazily jealous, but at least you admit it's a problem. if you keep subjecting your mind to this eventually you're just going to go compleetly crazy. very few men in this world are going to hear the phrase "you're the biggest i've ever had" i know that i'll never hear it.

but you're stressing over something that you can't change, unless you choose to jelq and put your faith in that. i know what it's like to look at people and be jealous, i have cystic fibrosis and have had since birth, and the baggage that comes with it is "why me?" i go through 3 hours a day of taking various medications so i can live a fairly normal life, i get pneumonia in the summer and i can't walk up a flight of stairs without taking a rest at the top. you've just gotta deal. when you realise that there are other things to worry about in life rather than the size of your cock, you'll be fine.

 

[hippyscum]

Originally posted by H4xXx0rzj00@Jul 3 2005, 06:55 AM
recently, my obsession has gotten bad to a point where if i see a penis in like, porn or something, i get angry and cant watch the porn anymore because i want to be twice as big as the person in the porno.

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as for this.. watch lesbian porn

 

[Pecker]

"Yeah, hon, that was the best sex I've ever had. That'll be $50."

 

[mindseye]

Let me try a different tack on what Madame Zora said:

You've got a good-sized penis, but you're wishing it were "the biggest penis in the world". Upstairs, you know that even the best surgeons, and the finest quality pumps, can't grant your desire.

This leaves you with two choices: Do nothing, and continue to wallow in your unhappy obsession. This is the easy choice, but it leads to no happiness. (No pain, no gain, as they say.)

The other choice is to find a way to move beyond that obsession -- and that's not easy to do. It takes a lot of soul-searching.

Let me suggest volunteering some of your time in a hospital or a burn center or a special-ed day care. By volunteering your time, you'll be helping other people -- and that always feels good. But moreover, working on a day-to-day basis and getting to know people who were dealt a far crappier hand in life than you were dealt -- that's almost sure to help you find a way to be thankful and accepting of what you've got even though it's not everything you hoped for.

 

[steve319]

Originally posted by madame_zora@Jul 3 2005, 03:54 AM
I'm going to say something very blunt here.

M_Zora being blunt? Has the world gone crazy here?

H4xXx0rzj00, I want to congratulate you on being honest with yourself and for having the courage to use the LPSG as the support group it's intended to be. Even under a new name, that couldn't have been easy, and I commend your step in this direction. Seems like a healthy realization that you need to chance your outlook.

It sounds as if you completely understand that your "member" stands in the same space as most of the rest of us and that you've had enough positive feedback in your sexual relationships that your ego is intact there. As you said, it's more about an unhealthy obsession than about sex. Realizing that is the first step, I'd say.

I really love mindseye's volunteerism suggestion. There's no faster way to feel better about our own troubles than to invest your energy in helping those less fortunate. It's all about perspective.

You might also consider talking to a counsellor. Something low-key, confidential, and short-term might help you get over the hump if you can't manage to change your thinking on your own. Sometimes even the most self-reliant of us need some assistance of some sort.

We're in your corner with this and support your efforts.

 

[13788]

H4xXx0rzj00: thanks all. ill try some other thing, but like stated above, ill prolly be doing soul searching.

it might the low self esteem thing, and subconsciencely, i think thats measured by penis size.

the thing is, i know that many MANY people have it far worse than i have, and im thankful for that. but thats the main problem. im just an average guy, but i cant seem to get over that. hell, right now, i think i would be fine if i was like, 7-8 inches. but how long would that last? if i somehow got to 7-8, i would think 8-9, then 9-10 and so on.

the obsession isnt a big problem yet, but it seems to get worse as time moves on, and i want to be able to stop it before it actually starts affecting my life.

 

[Pecker]

Originally posted by H4xXx0rzj00@Jul 3 2005, 01:06 PM
thanks all. ill try some other thing, but like stated above, ill prolly be doing soul searching.

it might the low self esteem thing, and subconsciencely, i think thats measured by penis size.

the thing is, i know that many MANY people have it far worse than i have, and im thankful for that. but thats the main problem. im just an average guy, but i cant seem to get over that. hell, right now, i think i would be fine if i was like, 7-8 inches. but how long would that last? if i somehow got to 7-8, i would think 8-9, then 9-10 and so on.

the obsession isnt a big problem yet, but it seems to get worse as time moves on, and i want to be able to stop it before it actually starts affecting my life.

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So what if you were to get your wish and you awoke one day with that huge cock you've yearned for.

What then? Who's gonna know? Other guys in the shower room? One girlfriend at a time?

Surely not the landlord - he doesn't care a whit about dicksize. He just wants the rent.

What will you say to your boss when the company is bought out by a conglomerate and you're fired - "Hey you can't do that to me - I've got a big dick!"

It won't get you on the subway free, you have to pay speeding tickets just like everybody else, it won't help you win at sports, catch bigger fish or design a better mouse trap.

Your heart and your brain are the important organs. Use them to their fullest extent and you'll die a happy, fullfilled man in a world full of average dicks.

 

[madame_zora]

What you seem to be blatantly ignoring is that there is NO WAY to get where your brain is trying to go! There is NO ONE ON EARTH who can change a 6'' penis into THE BIGGEST PENIS ON EARTH! Please allow me to dash your hopes. You are in desperate need of some reality therapy, my friend. It is simply NOT POSSIBLE to go from average to gergantuan size by any means available. Wishing endlessly for the impossible IS insanity, get the hell out of there!

What it DOES do is provide a safe retreat from the real world, which apparently your are finding tough to deal with. Here I can sympathise, we all have issues in life we'd prefer not to deal with realistically because we know that putting in the work will be hard and suck a lot of our energy out of us. No doubt, you have such a battle facing you now.
You really will not do yourself or the people around you any good by spending any more time living in a place of delusion. What people fail to realise is how completely damaging self-centered focus is. No one else is centering their attention on your self-image concerning your penis, so you staying in that place will only keep you alone, in a horrible place where you can never be what you're trying to create in your fantasies.
Your mind and energies would be much better put to use improving some aspect of your life you DO have the means to improve.

The suggestion to volunteer is the best one possible, I will echo it here vociferously! I also realise it will likely not be the suggestion you take becuase people who are obsessed with themselves find it very hard to concentrate on someone else. I think, scratch that, I KNOW that if you could get beyond yourself to reach out a hand to someone else, this would build positive self-esteem and ultimately be a good start on your way to recovery from the false god of the gigantic penis. Rarely are people interested in taking suggestions that might actually work, but herein lies any hope you may have.

Consider the alternative- you could go on wallowing, feeling bad, requiring others to supply constant reassurance (what a joy that is for others&#33 hating yourself, becoming suicidal, withdrawing from life, getting mad at porn, your erection, and delving deeper into self-loathing. While the familiarity of this might provide some brief comfort, following this out to it's logical conclusion will ultimately lead you to a worse and worse state. DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT, EVEN IF IT'S WRONG! Continuing to do the same things but expecting different results is a definition of insanity, brought to you by Alcoholics Anonymous.


*I'm adding this on- try some laugh therapy. Write down a list of all the things you WISH about your penis size and how it would make you feel to have what you want. Do a good job, spend time composing it, get into tall the tiny details and how you think it would affect your feelings. I'm sure you'll find the exercise of doing so to be somewhat gratifying. Then put it down, come back the next day and give it a hearty laugh! Now, I'm not talking about a tiny smirk, or a knowing nod that most of it is nutty, but make yourself actually LAUGH out loud. Laugh, not because your ideas are worthless or because you are a piece of shit inside, but because it's funny! All too often we take ourselves so fucking seriously, we fail to recogise the great opportunities we have for humor, and we are some funny fucking creatures. In AA you'll often hear the room go hush as some poor fool is detailing the horrors of his life (no one comes to AA because they are happy or successful, it's a very last resort&#33
only to be met by uproarious laughter as soon as he takes a breath! It's not because nobody cares about him, it's because we do. In reality, it IS funny that we all go chasing our own tails until someone shines the bright white light of reality in our faces. Perhaps if we are lucky, someone will be nice enough to laugh at OUR frustrations too, but until that happens, do it for yourself. At the very least, it will make you better company if you don't take yourself so seriously.

 

[godiluvabig1]

I agree wholeheartily with zora, but I've one thing to add to it:

While I'll be the first to admit that a man with a large penis can be lots of fun, I'll also be the first to admit that just because you've got a big one doesn't mean you know how to use it...

I've been with a guy who had 9 inches with a girth of 6-7 inches... And, to be blunt, the sex sucked... i've got some horror stories about this guy, and i think it's time to make them public... (i'll get to the point of the story at the end... btw, this is the way i was thinking... i guess it's how i dealt with him at the time...)

1. okay he had a big dick... so that was about all he had going for him... when we had sex, there was no foreplay...

2. well, he's got a big dick... but he made me do all the work, even when i brought my gf over for a threesome...

3. at least he's got a big dick... but he only gave it to me like once or twice every 3 WEEKS, NO MATTER WHAT I DID!!! :wow: I used to go to bed wearing just a thong or boy shorts to try to (unsuccessfully) get laid :grr: ... One night ( :evilgrin: ) I even stripped and began to shower in front of him as he was shaving, but he just finished shaving, brushed his teeth, and went to bed! :wow:

4. well, since he has a big dick, I'll just use him for sex before basic training...

This is pretty much the story of the relationship I had until I left for boot camp...
I really was interested in him (hell, I moved in with the guy for crying out loud)... but in the end, when I went back to louisiana, I used him for sex until I left... moral of the story is: just because you don't have a big dick doesn't mean you're not gonna please a woman... My ex pleased me, but only once in a blue moon (I have my suspicions of course, but that's just water under the bridge right now)...

Instead of worrying about the size of your dick, you should worry about pleasing a woman... if you can do that much, you're ahead of even some guys who are well endowed... and i am a firm believer in size... there's a big difference between a guy with 3 inches and a guy with 6+ inches... trust me on that one Good luck, and I respect you for humbling yourself

 

[Knight]

Welcome back godiluvabig1

Anyways, I was discussing the other night (last night or the night before) size. We were talking about when we have sex. She was goin on about 'how would you feel if you had a pole in between your legs'. I said it IS not a pole, more like a toothpick

So anyway, we kept talkin about this and somehow got to talkin about this lad who showed her his dick. He'd been braggin about how many girls he'd slept with and flashed his cock to my girlfriend (before we were goin out). Apparently she laughed at him and told him he was small (because he'd been bragging so much). I said to her so which do you think would feel better, mine or his? She jokingly said his but the point is she meant mine, although she never tried the other guy's tubestick.

Aside from having a big cock, I have a "personality" and crack jokes a lot, especially during sex. I don't just jump in there although the only foreplay needed is for me to finger her. No oral or anything and she doesn't like me touching her clit (its behind some 'lips or something, part of a camel toe thingy). So my dick (and fingers, but dick feels better) are all that's needed.

So yeah, size doesn't matter, she said she'd still lurve me if my dick was smaller, although it's a nice size now she said, and I have nothin to be ashamed of. But most girls like whatever they get, the girls that don't are probably the arses and girls you shouldn't be with in the first place.

Another thing to note is EVERYONE has their own hangups and insecurities. Girls probably worry about being too fat, their vaginas being ugly, or not being sexy enough for their partner. Guys worry about being too small 90% of the time. Don't worry about it.

I also don't want a bigger penis, it's sizeable enough for me. I used to and still sometimes do think about having a bigger penis, but I don't take any of it seriously. Same way I think about bending Angelina Jolie over sometimes

 

[13788]

H4xXx0rzj00: again, i agree with everyone on this topic, but its not something that will just disappear overnight.

also, i dont want a big penis to impress other people, i would want it just for me. i dont think i have low self esteem...im shy around girls usually, but not because i have low self esteem, but just because of a phobia i use to have of females. i dont have that now, but when i see a really attractive girl that i have to talk to, i do get kinda nervous.

besides that, i dont think its a self esteem issue.

i also dont think of myself very much, but i do only in this situation, which is why i hate feeling this way. it makes me feel selfish over a pointless issue. it gives me a lot of internal conflict.

 

[jonadkins]

Originally posted by H4xXx0rzj00@Jul 4 2005, 03:04 AM
again, i agree with everyone on this topic, but its not something that will just disappear overnight.

also, i dont want a big penis to impress other people, i would want it just for me. i dont think i have low self esteem...im shy around girls usually, but not because i have low self esteem, but just because of a phobia i use to have of females. i dont have that now, but when i see a really attractive girl that i have to talk to, i do get kinda nervous.

besides that, i dont think its a self esteem issue.

i also dont think of myself very much, but i do only in this situation, which is why i hate feeling this way. it makes me feel selfish over a pointless issue. it gives me a lot of internal conflict.

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I can't speak for the other members of this board. but I would be interested to know about the other things in your life, ie things not to do with penis size.

By the way. you're not the only one to be shy around attractive girls!

 

[13788]

H4xXx0rzj00:

Originally posted by jonadkins@Jul 4 2005, 07:57 AM
I can't speak for the other members of this board. but I would be interested to know about the other things in your life, ie things not to do with penis size.

By the way. you're not the only one to be shy around attractive girls!

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like what?

 

[mekkler]

You can't fool me. I'll bet you really do have a giant dick.l

 

[Pene_Negro_Grande]

Really can't add anything here...Everyone seems to have given you some great advice...Like I have said before I can to this site - I thought it was hard to find this many guys w/large penises...I assumed everyone was pretty much the same size and according to statistics - I was right...I thought only guys w/large penises were in pornos...

 

[XmccorkleX]

Listen to me Haxxors i had the same problem u did i meen look at my penis in the profile it ant Big, But i asked for some help here and it changed my life. Your gonan have to relize when u find the right girl penis size wont matter its the bond between you and your lover.

I hope u find some peace just remember life is too short to be worrying about your penis just enjoy yourself.


John

 

[husky14620]

Originally posted by madame_zora@Jul 3 2005, 03:54 AM

I'm going to say something very blunt here. Wish in ine hand, shit in the other. You have the penis you have, period. I don't care what size penis you want or how desperate the desire, it ain't so! The sooner you face reality, the sooner you can have a healthy life. The longer you engage in fantasies about the impossible, the more time you waste. I can't will myself to have white skin, you will never have the biggest penis on the earth, Tough shit.

Please people, get comfortable with who you are and learn to recognise what is and is not possible to change.

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Why Mme. Zora, from your avatar, one would think you have the most porcelain white skin known to humanity. Are you telling us it isn't so?

Seriously, he could consider surgical implantation, but what reputable surgeon would do the job? Some say the "exercises" work as well, but they would never get him to record breaking size. So he probably should accept the inevitable, as he seems to be trying to do by confessing his problem.