Confessions of a former cam model/cash slut

[migxs]

Today, after wondering for some time, I decided to share my story. Everybody knows that most of the audience of this website are older guys, trying to get something (pics, excitment, voyerism) from younger hotter males. I think it might be interesting for you to hear the other side of the story. I am now in mid twenties. Just like many kids, I used to be a cam performer in cam4 and chaturbate, even before having legal age to.

I remember my first time, I was shaking all over. Besides being on that side, I have also shared this voyerism of getting aroused by wathcing others, thats how I end up in this website. In that times, I have earned good cash, things were easier than today. Those websites werent full of semi-professional studios, where pimps all over eastern Europe and Colombia use poor boys and take advantage of them. I endeed enjoyed being watched by thousands. I got so familiar with this, that eventually «knew» many broadcasters by name, althouth never met them in person, we shared the same experience. With 2 I endeed met in person. Almost all my sexual experiences started in cam before doing in them in real life. Its not good, maybe, or also not bad either, it is like it is in these times. Having virtual sex goes from funny, to exciting, to disguisting. I had allways a rule: never force myself to do something I dont want. I have allways known earning money can be addictive. Have I allways respected that rule? No, but almost allways. I remember pissing over myself, that was something really unconfortable. Besides that, jerking, using sexual toys, including dildos, I did it by my free will. Sex, like all other things in life, change with time. Many of older guys today have the chance to satisfying themselfs wathcing and interacting with hot young males, and its maybe their only time when they can express freely their real sexuality, apart from the closet of «real life». Thats sad but it the reality in big part of the world.

Some of them/you may take advantage of kids, true, but most are just people satisfying their needs without hurting no one. The worse part of the process is exposing ourselfs, I mean, precisly the thing that, simultaneously, turn on most of you (and me). Knowing the real social media of a porn actor is one of the things that most arouse me. Because I am planning to blackmail them? Ofc not. Because I have the hope of knowing them in real life? No, it just turn me on. I guess its the mix between virtual life and real life. Showing face was allways disturbing, not of shame, but because I was aware of the potential consequences. But I needed the money. And, apart from that, it was enjoable.

Then eventually I got some «daddies», no more public shows where I exposed myselft to earn 15€/$. Those were good and exciting times. They paid me to have me only for them. Althouth I am not a submissive guy, was exciting to be «owned». I had fun, was not all about money. I had nice conversations, I learned about the world. But everthing has a end, and usually these kind of people dissapear. They died? They run out of money? No ideia, and I never will.

Then, some time I ago I decided it was time to dedicate my time to serious things, because our good body eventually will be over one day, and in that day nobody will pay us, so better take care of the future. Do I miss being appreciated and watched? Yes. Do I miss getting paid to be a sexual object and serve someone in the other side of planet? Yes. Have I though about going back and, for exemple, creating a onlyfans. I have. Will I? Maybe

Thank you if you read all this.
Feel free to ask me whatever. Feel free to offer me whatever.

 

[deleted3335341]

what was the confession? working as a cam boy?

 

[3403861]

I enjoy reading real life accounts of sex workers. Thank you so much for sharing

1. Are you still doing some form of sex work for income?

2. Does your family know about your line of work?

3. Would you do it all again now in 2022?

 

[Suitguy]

Well I am also into that doing pvts on cb

 

[BlackIncher90]

I too have dabbled in sex work. I would say I was doing it strictly for money. But the reality, I got super turned on by the idea of someone want me or my body so badly they pay for it

 

[migxs]

I enjoy reading real life accounts of sex workers. Thank you so much for sharing

1. Are you still doing some form of sex work for income?

2. Does your family know about your line of work?

3. Would you do it all again now in 2022?

Thank you.

1 - When I open skype and some of my regulars are still online and hit me up, but rare right now.
2 - No.
3 - Yes, and even more

 

[migxs]

Virtually or in person?

I too have dabbled in sex work. I would say I was doing it strictly for money. But the reality, I got super turned on by the idea of someone want me or my body so badly they pay for it

 

[BlackIncher90]

Virtually or in person?

In person

 

[SgtGirth]

Everybody knows that most of the audience of this website are older guys, trying to get something (pics, excitment, voyerism) from younger hotter males.

Ahh, youth! With it's inability to understand how anyone could possibly not be into them. I remember the point when I finally grasped this lesson. It can be a painful one to learn, depending on how invested you are in your own attractiveness. But it's worth pointing out that no-one is everybody's type although everybody is somebody's.

I'd say that the assumptions being carried in that sentence have everything to do with a cultural construction that frames youth as desirable. We could just as easily dismiss inexperience and go gaga over men who've been around the block (up the street, down the alley, out rural route one to the airport and off the Kiribati a time or two. But I digress)

Because I tend to be especially perverse, I find I personally tend to go for men who are pretty much the exact opposite of what I'm apparently "supposed" to like.

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Anyways, I spent a little bit of time doing some porn myself about ten years ago. Several years before that I did a little bit of escorting as well. The porn was done entirely for the experience and for fun. I learned a lot about what things are like on the set.

I got into it because I'm an exhibitionist, and that led right to my biggest surprise. When I'm having sex in public in front of an audience, I really hadn't realized just how much sexual energy I was getting from the voyeurs. I'd figured that it would be about the same making porn; the crew is still watching you, and many if not most are gay, right? I couldn't have been more wrong because the vibe from the crew wasn't, "Holy fuck! This is hot!" but rather, "Ho hum! Another day at the office."

It could be really difficult to overcome that and focus on my partner and try and develop some sexual chemistry all while being told exactly what to do by the director, which may or may not be a terribly comfortable position.

It may have been because it was my third scene, or because we were given more freedom to play around as we pleased, but I really think being in a group scene made this problem much easier, especially since there were only three crew members wandering around with cameras. Now we outnumbered them, and so I felt we could really get a good vibe going. And I think that comes across on video. That's one of the reasons I've always liked the "take a bunch of horny guys, tell them not to block the camera or cum without being recorded, but let 'em go have fun and get it on video" format.

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I found my work as an escort to be very satisfying. In fact I'd say it was probably one of the best jobs I've ever had. I think that was for two reasons:

1) As I mentioned, I've always been into guys older than me. Most of my clients were guys I'd likely have gotten with if I'd met them in a bathhouse instead of professionally. I'd occasionally feel kind of bad for charging them money when I'd have gotten with them for free off the clock. Not bad enough to actually turn down the cash though. LOL

2) I grasped right from the start that sex work is a customer service job, which means it ain't about what turns you on or what you want to do. I'm of the opinion that the more you are able to provide your client with whatever it is that turns HIM on, the more successful you'll be.

I'm lucky, though, that I've always been turned on when I sense my partner(s) are having a great time. I thrive on that feedback between us. That's a really great fetish to have when you working as a hooker.

 

[rocky22lookin]

Ahh, youth! With it's inability to understand how anyone could possibly not be into them. I remember the point when I finally grasped this lesson. It can be a painful one to learn, depending on how invested you are in your own attractiveness. But it's worth pointing out that no-one is everybody's type although everybody is somebody's.

I'd say that the assumptions being carried in that sentence have everything to do with a cultural construction that frames youth as desirable. We could just as easily dismiss inexperience and go gaga over men who've been around the block (up the street, down the alley, out rural route one to the airport and off the Kiribati a time or two. But I digress)

Because I tend to be especially perverse, I find I personally tend to go for men who are pretty much the exact opposite of what I'm apparently "supposed" to like.

---

Anyways, I spent a little bit of time doing some porn myself about ten years ago. Several years before that I did a little bit of escorting as well. The porn was done entirely for the experience and for fun. I learned a lot about what things are like on the set.

I got into it because I'm an exhibitionist, and that led right to my biggest surprise. When I'm having sex in public in front of an audience, I really hadn't realized just how much sexual energy I was getting from the voyeurs. I'd figured that it would be about the same making porn; the crew is still watching you, and many if not most are gay, right? I couldn't have been more wrong because the vibe from the crew wasn't, "Holy fuck! This is hot!" but rather, "Ho hum! Another day at the office."

It could be really difficult to overcome that and focus on my partner and try and develop some sexual chemistry all while being told exactly what to do by the director, which may or may not be a terribly comfortable position.

It may have been because it was my third scene, or because we were given more freedom to play around as we pleased, but I really think being in a group scene made this problem much easier, especially since there were only three crew members wandering around with cameras. Now we outnumbered them, and so I felt we could really get a good vibe going. And I think that comes across on video. That's one of the reasons I've always liked the "take a bunch of horny guys, tell them not to block the camera or cum without being recorded, but let 'em go have fun and get it on video" format.

---

I found my work as an escort to be very satisfying. In fact I'd say it was probably one of the best jobs I've ever had. I think that was for two reasons:

1) As I mentioned, I've always been into guys older than me. Most of my clients were guys I'd likely have gotten with if I'd met them in a bathhouse instead of professionally. I'd occasionally feel kind of bad for charging them money when I'd have gotten with them for free off the clock. Not bad enough to actually turn down the cash though. LOL

2) I grasped right from the start that sex work is a customer service job, which means it ain't about what turns you on or what you want to do. I'm of the opinion that the more you are able to provide your client with whatever it is that turns HIM on, the more successful you'll be.

I'm lucky, though, that I've always been turned on when I sense my partner(s) are having a great time. I thrive on that feedback between us. That's a really great fetish to have when you working as a hooker.

I guess I'm too new here to realize most of the folks here are older guys. I came trying to find out info and ended up exploring a lil.

 

[deleted15741721]

I use to sell my ass and get locked up by black older me who fucked me.

 

[migxs]

Ahh, youth! With it's inability to understand how anyone could possibly not be into them. I remember the point when I finally grasped this lesson. It can be a painful one to learn, depending on how invested you are in your own attractiveness. But it's worth pointing out that no-one is everybody's type although everybody is somebody's.

This sentence has a great deal of paternalism, and more importantly, it's wrong because I didn't say nothing like that.

But thanks anyway for the feedback.

 

[migxs]

Since some people is asking it in private mensage, yeah, I reactivated my onlyfans, and here it is: OnlyFans

 

[3790721]

Since some people is asking it in private mensage, yeah, I reactivated my onlyfans, and here it is: OnlyFans

lol wasn't that the only goal of this "confessions" post ?

 

[migxs]

lol wasn't that the only goal of this "confessions" post ?

If you subscribe, you will realize that my page wasn't active when I wrote this post.

 

[deleted2604161]

Former Huh?

 

[JJREAGAN]

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Today, after wondering for some time, I decided to share my story. Everybody knows that most of the audience of this website are older guys, trying to get something (pics, excitment, voyerism) from younger hotter males. I think it might be interesting for you to hear the other side of the story. I am now in mid twenties. Just like many kids, I used to be a cam performer in cam4 and chaturbate, even before having legal age to.

I remember my first time, I was shaking all over. Besides being on that side, I have also shared this voyerism of getting aroused by wathcing others, thats how I end up in this website. In that times, I have earned good cash, things were easier than today. Those websites werent full of semi-professional studios, where pimps all over eastern Europe and Colombia use poor boys and take advantage of them. I endeed enjoyed being watched by thousands. I got so familiar with this, that eventually «knew» many broadcasters by name, althouth never met them in person, we shared the same experience. With 2 I endeed met in person. Almost all my sexual experiences started in cam before doing in them in real life. Its not good, maybe, or also not bad either, it is like it is in these times. Having virtual sex goes from funny, to exciting, to disguisting. I had allways a rule: never force myself to do something I dont want. I have allways known earning money can be addictive. Have I allways respected that rule? No, but almost allways. I remember pissing over myself, that was something really unconfortable. Besides that, jerking, using sexual toys, including dildos, I did it by my free will. Sex, like all other things in life, change with time. Many of older guys today have the chance to satisfying themselfs wathcing and interacting with hot young males, and its maybe their only time when they can express freely their real sexuality, apart from the closet of «real life». Thats sad but it the reality in big part of the world.

Some of them/you may take advantage of kids, true, but most are just people satisfying their needs without hurting no one. The worse part of the process is exposing ourselfs, I mean, precisly the thing that, simultaneously, turn on most of you (and me). Knowing the real social media of a porn actor is one of the things that most arouse me. Because I am planning to blackmail them? Ofc not. Because I have the hope of knowing them in real life? No, it just turn me on. I guess its the mix between virtual life and real life. Showing face was allways disturbing, not of shame, but because I was aware of the potential consequences. But I needed the money. And, apart from that, it was enjoable.

Then eventually I got some «daddies», no more public shows where I exposed myselft to earn 15€/$. Those were good and exciting times. They paid me to have me only for them. Althouth I am not a submissive guy, was exciting to be «owned». I had fun, was not all about money. I had nice conversations, I learned about the world. But everthing has a end, and usually these kind of people dissapear. They died? They run out of money? No ideia, and I never will.

Then, some time I ago I decided it was time to dedicate my time to serious things, because our good body eventually will be over one day, and in that day nobody will pay us, so better take care of the future. Do I miss being appreciated and watched? Yes. Do I miss getting paid to be a sexual object and serve someone in the other side of planet? Yes. Have I though about going back and, for exemple, creating a onlyfans. I have. Will I? Maybe

Thank you if you read all this.
Feel free to ask me whatever. Feel free to offer me whatever.

Thank you for sharing. I’m not that old (32) but I’m a newish Dr with long work hours and no social life. And chaturbate and the beautiful men, like your self on it, have helped me through school, residency and even today. It is nice to watch a beautiful young man get turned on and eventually cum . It makes me feel good? Helping them feel good and also helping them financially.
Today was no different. I needed to feel something after losing a patient overnight last night. The young man I interacted with was perfect.
thank you again for talking about the other side of the screen.

 

[DonLyno]

Thanks for sharing your experience. Wish you a lot of future success.

Do you prefer the work on OF? Not missing real time interaction?