Confessions of zodiac00000

zodiac00000

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You know how LPSG.ORG asks you your orientation and some of us put 100% straight or gay and others leave a little wiggle room? Well I was one of those who left the 20% for exploration. I will be honest I am a 25 year old man who is as some would say in his prime of his life and yet I can count the number of women that I have slept with on one hand. Don’t get me wrong I am one of the freakiest people you could ever meet, I am just selective on who I sleep with. I guess you will need to know this before I divulge my confession but I have been in love with the same woman for my entire life and now we have been separated by forces that neither she nor I can control and it sucks. This is the main cause about why I have not been with more women, no one compares to here.

Which leads me to my confession. I have always been a highly sexual person as I said before. I love to indulge in porn of all types and erotic writing and everything of the sort. I will admit as a straight man I can appreciate sex between two men as I too am a fan of the Sean Cody series. I like the fact that guys who are just as straight as I am, well in theory I guess, can fuck each other and then go back to their girlfriends. Over the years my fascination with this led me to wonder was it possible for me to experiment like this as well? All through college I had read about guys simply experimenting on each other but I could never tell which if any of my friends fell into that category. I mean I had thought about it but never acted on it. I’ll admit I like the attention I get from other guys at the gym, and yes I do have just as good of a body as the guys I write about in my fictional stories but I never encourage their advances just allow them to look.

Right now I am on vacation at a resort with a large swinging population and I am here all by myself. Every day I see couples everywhere trying to find a place to fondle one another. Some private and other not so much and I am left alone to think I wish she was here so that we could explore all our sexual fantasies together.

Last night I was walking down the main street trying to see if I could find a couple in a car or in the bushes but mainly to clear my head when I saw a guy walk past. He looked mixed and had these piercing grey eyes. It was so much like my stories. I walked past him and noted how handsome he was but didn’t think of much of it. As I said I can appreciate when a guy is hot. I walked into a nearby parking lot when I noticed that Mr. Grey had just stepped off of the street and into the parking lot himself. I said “Hmm. He probably is trying to talk to me” I guess that could sound vain but I realized fast that the gay guys here would continue to walk past you until you followed them where they were going or until they were sure u weren’t interested. So as to not encourage him I let him walk past me and continued to walk along the building. I don’t know what made me turn around but I looked up at the staircase and there he was walking up the steps putting his thumb in his mouth in a mock blowjob motion. I don’t know what it was about him or the action but something about it made me want to see where this was going.

I walked up the staircase, each step asking myself what the hell am I doing, each step weighing the pros and cons, each step thinking run Simba, run far away, then I walked a little way down the dimly lit hall to find an open door to an empty storage/trash room. There I found Mr. Grey kneeling with hands clasped to his chain as if waiting, and praying that I would arrive. I prayed to god that he wouldn’t see my face but I was already there and I was already hard. I fumbled to open my pants but soon my dick sprang out. He grabbed it and with the most delicate of lips he began to blow me. I must admit after hearing all my gay friends say that “a man is much better at giving head than a woman, because he know what feels good” I was expecting the world but I found Mr. Grey to be too light. I know this isn’t really the thought process one would expect from a straight guy receiving head for the first time but for some reason I felt like a scientist doing important research.

Anyway after a few more minutes of Mr. Grey’s Airjob I decided it was my turn to take control. Now a little about me, I am definitely a giver. And every woman that I have slept with will tell you that. I love to eat pussy but I don’t really like to lay still to receive a blowjob so Mr. Grey would have to zip down and let me suck my first cock. Now trust me I couldn’t believe when I held his dick in my hand that I was actually touching another man’s meat. His dick was similar to mines in length but that is where it ended. He had a thick base that narrowed to a pointy head where as mines was thick all the way through with a big noticeable head. Then there was the major difference I was circumcised where as he was not. I tell you the scene was like if I had written it myself.

So I got down on my knees and began to voraciously suck Mr. Grey off. I was like a mad man. I sucked and sucked and deep throated his dick. I couldn’t believe I was so animalistic with how I went down on this strange guy. I knew I was doing something right by the way he began to moan loudly to my mouth. Then as if to just say “Fuck it” I shoved a finger into Mr. Grey’s ass. If he thought he was in control of the situation when he motioned me upstairs he was now sadly mistaken. He started to groan even louder in an almost slight scream. He lightly tried to move my hand away but I was not having it. I was beginning to frighten myself with just how into it I was getting but it was more from the domination than from actually having a penis in my mouth. In reality I felt the same pleasure from pleasing him that I would a woman but I think the danger of the situation had added an extra sense of excitement.

I don’t know what came over me but I was determined to have this be a complete experience. No, “I should have tried or done this, that or the other” so I pulled out the 2 condoms I had been carrying with me since I got to the resort in hopes of meeting some pussy. I opened it up and gave it to him to put on me. He rolled it down then asked me something in whatever language he spoke. Oh yeah I forgot to tell you I’m not in the states. I shook my head then he pulled out a packet. At first I thought it was another condom and that he was doubling up but it turned out to be lube. In my mind I thought “Really you just walk around with lube?” but then I figured “Hey don’t judge you are walking around with condoms”

Anyway he lubed up his hole, turned around then bent over, after some time trying to squeeze my girth into his ass he stood up in defeat. I could tell from his facial expression that my size was going to be a problem for him but I just spun him around and tried again. I really don’t know why I was so forceful and adamant about it, it was my first time. Anyway after trying a couple more times I managed to invade his hole. Was it any different from the pussies I had fucked? Not really. It was basically a warm hole, granted it was attached to a penis but it felt like a warm moist hole.

This moist hole however was just what I needed though. It felt so great to be fucking again and that is the honest truth. I felt sorry for him though because with each stroke he moaned louder and louder and I will admit again that that just turned me on even more. We were fucking in a hidden room and he was feeling the effects of my dick and I was just in pure bliss when I came. No different from when I cum in a woman. Nothing more, nothing less, just the same. I emptied my sperm in the condom pulled out and that was it. He said something to me but I said only “English” then he said “Bye,” I said the same and with that it was over.

I walked back to my room asking myself how I felt about it. Did I think I was now gay for not only allowing a man to blow my dick but to reciprocate and fuck him as well? Did I feel like I had sinned and would go to hell to burn for eternity? Did I think I would now harbor a deep dark secret that would stop me from living life or find the wife that I so desire?

The truth is no. I don’t know what it is but I just feel indifferent to the entire ordeal. I feel like I just had sex and that’s that. I am trying to look at it from all angles but I don’t know I just feel like I just had sex. Now I know some of you will say. If you had sex with a man then it automatically makes you gay and I guess there is some truth to that. And others may say well if you aren’t emotionally invested in the individual of the same sex then it is what it is, a quick fuck in experimentation and again I say there is some truth in that.

I honestly don’t know what to think about it. I really think the fact that the anonymous public sex aspect of the situation was more arousing to me than the act itself. I have been so prude when it comes to sex sometimes that this I guess was some form of rebellion but that could just be the justification talking .In essence the novelty of the encounter being in a foreign country at a resort where no one knows who you are, what you do or even cares if they would see you again was almost liberating for me When I really look at it I could have had sex with anyone in that storage room.

This is where I open the floor up to discussion. Everyone is invited to comment. No comment is too harsh none to soft. It’s a forum.

I’ll start the ball rolling. What is your verdict on male experimentation and though it isn’t, should it be as acceptable as female experimentation?

For those straight guys out there, what is male experimentation and how far is too far?

For the women who have experimented with women in the past would you date a guy or think anything less of a guy who experimented in the past as well?
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The way you wrote leads me to wonder if it is fiction (since it was posted in the fiction section) or fact. The cause of my wonder is the fact that it was well written. Thanks for sharing.
 

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I'm impressed by your writing. This story is so hot; I'd like to know where you vacation :smile: