Hey guys (and gals), this is my first post... (sorry in advance if its really long!
I'm an 18 year old guy and have been questioning my sexuality for a few years now, its been a long and painful process and I still don't seem to be any closer to becoming comfortable with myself (or even knowing what I am)
I have ALWAYS known that I am not entirely straight and for a while I thought I was gay. I even began to accept it (most people assume I am gay upon first meeting me and many long established friends have long had their suspicions lol)
Recently I have realised that I am only attracted to guys in a purely sexual sense eg: I feel that I have no desire to have a relationship with one and do not think i could fall in love with another man. ALL my past sexual experiences and relationships have been with girls (and I have REALLY enjoyed them), I have never even kissed another guy. In some respects I was trying to deny that I am still attracted to women in order to identify myself as "gay" rather than "bisexual". I am sexually and emotionally attracted to women but sexually attracted to men also, but have had no experience.
My dilemma lies here: I feel like I have been keeping my attraction to men secret for my entire life (while people have suspected that I am gay I have always maintained otherwise) I am at the point in my life now where I want to be open with everyone about who i am and who i am attracted to, but how can i do this if i don't even know myself? I recently read an article which stated that bisexuality in men is a myth and that they are in denail of being gay or straight!! I feel like if i tell people that I am bisexual they will assume that I am gay and lying (or in denial). I know that sexuality is a hard thing to categorize but I just wish that I knew if I was gay or bi (or if bi even exists!
I feel like I want to "come out" but what do I say "Dad, I'm gay", "Dad I'm bisexual" or "Dad I'm sexually attracted to men and women but don't know if I'm bisexual or a homosexual in denial, I just wanted to let you know" lol
Sorry if this post sounds ridiculous, I just want to be able to tell my friends when I see a hot guy.......... (or girl) aaaaaaagh
Thanks for listening!
I'm an 18 year old guy and have been questioning my sexuality for a few years now, its been a long and painful process and I still don't seem to be any closer to becoming comfortable with myself (or even knowing what I am)
I have ALWAYS known that I am not entirely straight and for a while I thought I was gay. I even began to accept it (most people assume I am gay upon first meeting me and many long established friends have long had their suspicions lol)
Recently I have realised that I am only attracted to guys in a purely sexual sense eg: I feel that I have no desire to have a relationship with one and do not think i could fall in love with another man. ALL my past sexual experiences and relationships have been with girls (and I have REALLY enjoyed them), I have never even kissed another guy. In some respects I was trying to deny that I am still attracted to women in order to identify myself as "gay" rather than "bisexual". I am sexually and emotionally attracted to women but sexually attracted to men also, but have had no experience.
My dilemma lies here: I feel like I have been keeping my attraction to men secret for my entire life (while people have suspected that I am gay I have always maintained otherwise) I am at the point in my life now where I want to be open with everyone about who i am and who i am attracted to, but how can i do this if i don't even know myself? I recently read an article which stated that bisexuality in men is a myth and that they are in denail of being gay or straight!! I feel like if i tell people that I am bisexual they will assume that I am gay and lying (or in denial). I know that sexuality is a hard thing to categorize but I just wish that I knew if I was gay or bi (or if bi even exists!
I feel like I want to "come out" but what do I say "Dad, I'm gay", "Dad I'm bisexual" or "Dad I'm sexually attracted to men and women but don't know if I'm bisexual or a homosexual in denial, I just wanted to let you know" lol
Sorry if this post sounds ridiculous, I just want to be able to tell my friends when I see a hot guy.......... (or girl) aaaaaaagh
Thanks for listening!