Okay, I have been stressing over this but haven't told anyone before, so I figure this would be a good place to vent, anonymously. It is concerning my sexuality. I remember when I first started watching porn, I watched straight porn, for quite a few years. Eventually I noticed that I would focus more on the penis than the woman - not the guy per say, just the penis. However, I am with a girl who I truly love, and in the future I want a family with her. I am attracted to girls emotionally as well as sexually, but I have an attraction to guys as well. This attraction is only sexually - I could never see myself actually being with another guy. For example, I find a guy giving a blowjob to be hot, but if they kiss it is a turn off. Porn-wise, I tend to watch more gay porn now. Recently I have found one reason for this, in most straight porn the girls act like sluts. I do not enjoy the over the top screaming and moaning that plagues the industry. Also, I enjoy watching gay anal, but the thought of actually performing anal sex slightly disgusts me... I'm kind of attracted to girls and penis. Sorry if this is one long confusing rant, but I am still in the process of working it out in my own head. What I am basically trying to say is: I am attracted to girls emotionally, but men turn me on sexually...I want to have a family with this girl in the future, but I don't want to have to keep any dark secrets. Do you think this might just be a "phase" or might I be Bi? I am not very good at clearly voicing my thoughts, so theres more things that I can't really find how to say.