[quote author=da_blissmachine link=board=meetgreet;num=1045017137;start=0#3 date=02/11/03 at 19:47:48]
"...could it be a desire for closeness and "brotherhood" between males?..."
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da_blissmachine,
I think you can stop worrying, too.
And, yes...it could be a deep-seated psychological desire (NEED, really) for not only closeness but more like bonding with other males... in a strictly positive way.
I have done in-depth reading to help me understand my very troubled past. I was extremely introverted during my first twenty years. Didn't go out for sports; couldn't relate to my dad (in fact, in retrospect, he outright rejected me; I just didn't realize it then nor the consequences that meant to me emotionally) I withdrew from being around other males during a crucial time of my life (when ultimately my emotional journey from boyhood to manhood could have been MUCH easier had I had postive role models via my father and being around other guys and getting involved with "guy things" such a sports, cars, dating girls in H.S. etc.) Instead, I remained somewhat of a recluse; down on myself, with very little self esteem and motivation to even try. This "trend" was so very subtle year to year for me; I just didn't see it nor did I realize the paralyzing effect not having other guys in my life was having upon me. It took the death of my father (just two years ago) and not being able to grieve for him that led me into the journey of "untangling" my past. It all makes perfect sense now. Guys need to have other guys in their lives....but not necessarily in a sexual kind of way.
Guys need to feel accepted and a part of the "brotherhood" of their gender. Your dream I strongly suspect has to do more with your desire to be one of the guys. I don't read anything at all in your dream about the issue of sexual orientation here necessarily. And I wouldn't fret over it just now. It's NOT the real issue here at all and I am willing to bet on it!
And, who's to say hormonal "adjustments" are contributing to your dreams at this stage of your early life? Testosterone is a powerful force to reckon with.
The other posters have shared some good insights, too.
So, relax.
And, btw....I sure wish I could remember the details of my dreams like you did! -- Shoot, I can't even remember the next morning if I even HAD a dream! ;D