So when did you guys know you were ready to go there with someone. It seems to be that everyone is saying there is trust factor.
Well my story is a bit different, i always thought bareback/creampie vids were hot, always wanted to do it one day but i felt like it was something i could or should save for the person i would want to marry or spend my life with.
There are only so many things you can do sexually & i was not a virgin anymore so i figured that could be something i could save for this guy (whenever i found him.)
It was really hard a lot of times but for years & years basically i just kept that thought in my head and never deviated from it.
Early this year i was raped by 2 men & they did not use protection- they came in me & more than the personal violation, anger & sadness let alone shame....i was hurt that they took the one thing i was saving for someone special in my life, i cannot tell you how bad that made me feel- honestly that was the worst part.
I waited & got the battery of test and luckily everything was ok, but i felt out of control, like really pissed & felt like i needed to get control back.
Maybe some people will not understand this (maybe you have to be in the situation) but i just kept feeling like i had to get the power back because it's not something i could take back happening & i no longer had this present to give.
I have a "friend with benefits" situation for over 2 years now & he is a really attractive, sensitive, fun & sexy guy with a little boy quality that could never hurt anyone and i love to spend time with him So i decided that i needed him to cum in me to sort of take back what was mine as best as i could after the fact.
I didn't want the only time i had experienced this to be a violent situation with strangers that didn't care & just wanted to use me...i couldn't live that way it just grossed me out so much & i had always revered this act as a beautiful thing that could happen between two trusting people.
Its not that i thought this would erase what happened before i just had to restore the balance if you will, it had to be my choice with someone i really care for & am attracted too.
So this September we did it and it was great we had awesome unprotected sex & in the end he came in me & it was beautiful...honestly it was like a form of sex therapy in a way because each day i really started to feel better & more in control.
We have done it one other time since & it was was super, even better than the first, i mean i could feel everything, every moment & he was so turned on by it he said (and i felt) he shot the biggest & most orgasmic load of his life!
He was so curious about when it might come out & how it felt inside me ....and i actually kept it with me all night even til the next day, messy but in a good very close to him way.
He is not "the one" i had thought of and probably not the one i'll end up with but i truly do not think he will ever know how much he has helped me just by being my friend, my F-buddy & being the one to cum inside me.:biggrin1:
*Thank you for listening.