I have lurked around this site for quite some time, but this is the first time I have ever asked for advice. I searched the forum and actually found some relevant posts, but I decided to start my own thread. You see, I have a dilemma. I apologize for the long-windedness. A little background first. I'm a 32 year old man. I'm of the belief that sexuality is a spectrum, and rarely are people 100% straight or 100% gay. All my relationships have been with women. I have never messed around with a guy before, but I consider myself bi-sexual because I am attracted to men as well. I wouldn't be against trying something with a guy, I've just never had the opportunity to do so, and the urge has never been strong enough to act on. I haven't been in a relationship for about a year. The last one ended poorly, and I just haven't had the energy to try again. Here's where things get interesting/complicated -- I have a huge crush on a guy I work with. It's developed slowly over time as we have become friends. I haven't had these strong of feelings for anyone in a long, long time. It's been very strange, and needless to say I'm wait for it confused. I don't know if this is an infatuation, if it's a jealousy thing, or if I'm in love (weird for me to even think about). Now, I can't do anything about this crush. This is a co-worker, most likely straight, and I'm just not in a position or frame of mind where I would divulge these feelings. It would be inappropriate anyway. But this has all been very painful because I can't avoid this person. I see him every single day at work. I can't get him out of my mind and I don't know what to do. This truly is a first for me. Does anyone have any advice, or any insight that might help me? I'm downplaying the fact that this has me pretty upset and depressed. I hate to whine, but I truly have no idea how to handle this. Hopefully I'll get over it and the feelings will go away, or at least decrease in severity. Thanks in advance for what I hope will be a constructive conversation.