OK, I just don't get it... As some may recall, a gay friend has taken me along with her misses to a local gay bar, one of only two in my city. Anyway, I've been a few times and I have to say, there is nothing there I as a man, as a gay man, can identify with. The owners are lovely people and we nearly always have a pleasant enough time but I just can understand other gay men. I think I'm actually homophobic. I know being gay is a spectrum as with most aspects of life but being virtually the only gay bar in the city, I would have thought I'd of see more than just the stereotypical screaming twinks. Fuck they are annoying. Maybe I'm just too old and sexually repressed but for the love of Christ, I just do not see the necessity nor the attraction of petite white wine, drain pipe tight jeans, impromptu high pitch screaming, morose exaggeration and complete and utter bitch campness imaginable. I hate the word fag, but you can understand why it's used. It's repugnant and so superficial... I always wondered if the straight dominated world I grew up in was unnecessarily cruel and unfair in it's understand and perception of homosexual men, and to some degree it was but I have to say, there sure as hell is no smoke without fire. What the fuck NZ, a nation of rugby men, I think not. A bunch of fucking shirt lifters as my grandmother would have said. I'm not there to date, let me make that perfectly clear, as thankfully I have someone right up my alley more than interested in me and I him, but if I were, fuck, I think I'd have no choice but to go straight living in this part of NZ. Where are men who are men? Contradictorily, I have on some level a real respect for the complete screamers of the gay society, their plight is the reason men like me can so freely be gay without complete fear of persecution. I understand that. Then why as a gay man do I find so many gay men just simply unattractive?