I have recently been wishing that my sex partner will be my boyfriend again.
I have always loved him and he tells me he loves me in e-mails.
This is the most pathetic relationship I have ever had.
We don't have a normal relationship.
I used to be in the hospital or going to the doctor or working and it was hard to get to see him.
I tried to break it off altogether and I was sooo miserable.
I have a terrible crush on him.
So now I am actively wishing for him to fall in love with me for real.
I feel that I met him as a result of witchcraft and I am not putting offerings out to the Goddess to try to win him because I believe that is black magic and strictly forbidden - so I just wish for him to be mine.
I didn't put any spell on a particular person ,only asked for someone to be fascinated with. I wouldn't directly try to influence him using offerings or anything else . That's what I mean by black magic.
I think I am going to have to find a Pagan forum.
People around here have no idea of the meaning of consorts or anything Pagan.
Maybe I should try to find someone sexually compatible and into the things I like.
Does that really happen? I have always been so cynical about men.
If you cannot understand what the point is please ask.
If you have no constructive advise on how to organize the way I write then skip it.
I am not here to be bashed.
Unfortunately most people can't give much advise on relationships. They are such a mystery.
Prior to this relationship if the guy didn't treat me the way I want I dropped him.I tried that with this one and it has dragged on for a year and a half.
I have always loved him and he tells me he loves me in e-mails.
This is the most pathetic relationship I have ever had.
We don't have a normal relationship.
I used to be in the hospital or going to the doctor or working and it was hard to get to see him.
I tried to break it off altogether and I was sooo miserable.
I have a terrible crush on him.
So now I am actively wishing for him to fall in love with me for real.
I feel that I met him as a result of witchcraft and I am not putting offerings out to the Goddess to try to win him because I believe that is black magic and strictly forbidden - so I just wish for him to be mine.
I didn't put any spell on a particular person ,only asked for someone to be fascinated with. I wouldn't directly try to influence him using offerings or anything else . That's what I mean by black magic.
I think I am going to have to find a Pagan forum.
People around here have no idea of the meaning of consorts or anything Pagan.
Maybe I should try to find someone sexually compatible and into the things I like.
Does that really happen? I have always been so cynical about men.
If you cannot understand what the point is please ask.
If you have no constructive advise on how to organize the way I write then skip it.
I am not here to be bashed.
Unfortunately most people can't give much advise on relationships. They are such a mystery.
Prior to this relationship if the guy didn't treat me the way I want I dropped him.I tried that with this one and it has dragged on for a year and a half.