I put an ad on craigslist to meet guys because I'd kinda like a boyfriend. So this one guy answers it. I'm 25 and I said in my ad I was looking for 20 to 35 year olds. This guy that answers the ad is 36. 35 is pushing it for me so 36 is over what I was looking for but I started talking to him anyway. So he thinks I'm hot and I go on cam for him and he's just gushing over me. So I'm like, whatever. And then he starts telling me about how wealthy he is and I couldn't care less. I think wealthy people who talk about their wealth is a turn off. But then he mentions a Mediterranean cruise he's going to go on and then says he'd like to take me with him. And he would pay for everything! I've never been on ANYTHING like that before and I'd likely never be able to afford something like that and I'd SOOO wanna go! So he goes from being just a guy on the internet to someone of interest to me. And that makes me feel like I'm using him and I'm not like that but god...I wanna go on that trip. lol So I figure I'll give him a chance and see if it can work. So then he sends me his pic and....he's really overweight and not attractive at all. But I agreed to go on date with him. And that date ended an hour ago. The first thing I noticed about him when I met him was his smell. He smelled really bad. And then I noticed again how unattractive he is. And he talked on and on about shit I care nothing about and I'd pretend to be interested and he'd say "So are you having a good time?" and I'd be thinking "no" but I'd say "Oh yeah, great time." So at the end of it he kissed me...and it was the WORST KISS EVER!!! His lips were big and mushy and wet. It was like kissing two soggy marshmallows. It was disgusting. And then he asked me when we can go out again and I told him Sunday. But the part I feel so guilty about is that if he was not offering me this cruise, I would never consider going out with him. I don't know how much more I can do with him. I know he's gonna want sex eventually. Dunno if I could bring myself to do that with him. And he made it clear that he is not looking for friends. He said he has enough of them. He wants a bf and he wants me to be his bf. But I just want a cruise. lol Is that horrible?