Hello guys .. this is my first post on this website ... i wanted to share my problem and check if someone is able to help me out .. first af all i struggle with depression and anxiety .. i've been taking meds for 5 years now .. and the triggers are watching scary movies and dating guys .. the first time i dated a guy it triggered my depression and i entered into a black hole .. i lost my ability to eat or sleep for a couple months and i ended up with the guy right away 5 years from that .. i tried dating a guy last week .. we went out for a drink and i told him before that i only wanted friends nothing serious .. everything went great but once i got back home i started having symtompts again that lasted the whole week .. im at a point that i dont know what to do .. push the relation with this guy and try to resolve these inner problems or stop trying once for all ... i've read online that you dont have to turn back or anxiety will worsen .. i know deep down that im gay but i cant enter any relationship. I went only to a psychiatist and i tried booking a therapist but theres no place for me for the next 3 months