When I was younger, I had a few oral sexual experience's with 3 different men. It started at age 14 lasted till I was 19 and I had several girlfriends during and after that time. Since then I have never been with a man but have often fantasized about how much I enjoyed giving a blowjob. I am now 37 and married and I am having guilty feelings because I still want to do this. Am I wrong? Should I pursue my feelings? Can I be discreet? Can I do one and done or will I want more? Please help, questions, thoughts or comments!!!