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Here's a downer for you all. And this is probably not quite the place to seek support for death (not that there aren't supportive people here, but that it this site is more specifically for human relationships). Anyway I couldn't think where else to go.
A week ago I was absolutely content with my life, happy in everything (even in being single-because I had my wee dog). Then he was run over. I know I invested possibly too much emotion and time into him, but he was my love and joy for the one short year of his life.
I am so terribly devastated and feel totally betrayed by God to whom I prayed to daily to keep my boy safe and to thank Him for bringing him into my life. Anyway, I will get over it and get on but what has really astounded me is the reaction of most of my friends and some of my family.
Everyone has dealt with me in a different way and quite frankly there is no right way as all I want is my dog back. However, a lot of people I thought were friends have not even spoken to me, even by telephone, let alone visiting me and checking I'm alright. Others avoid the topic completely (which suited me at first as I couldn't talk about it, but now I have found it helpful to talk about it and I am treated like a leper). I feel they are all saying 'it was only a dog' but to me it is the equivalent of my child dying.
I am really disappointed by some so-called friends and now need them more than ever when I have this huge huge chasm in my life. Do I beg them for their company to help me through the loneliness, or just write them off as bad friends?
There was a thread here last week about whether to give up on love and I thought definately not, but when everything you love is eventually (or quickly) snatched away from you, why bother?
(I am not ready yet to hear that I am being pathetic and feeling sorry for myself, so if you think it please just think it and not write it).
A week ago I was absolutely content with my life, happy in everything (even in being single-because I had my wee dog). Then he was run over. I know I invested possibly too much emotion and time into him, but he was my love and joy for the one short year of his life.
I am so terribly devastated and feel totally betrayed by God to whom I prayed to daily to keep my boy safe and to thank Him for bringing him into my life. Anyway, I will get over it and get on but what has really astounded me is the reaction of most of my friends and some of my family.
Everyone has dealt with me in a different way and quite frankly there is no right way as all I want is my dog back. However, a lot of people I thought were friends have not even spoken to me, even by telephone, let alone visiting me and checking I'm alright. Others avoid the topic completely (which suited me at first as I couldn't talk about it, but now I have found it helpful to talk about it and I am treated like a leper). I feel they are all saying 'it was only a dog' but to me it is the equivalent of my child dying.
I am really disappointed by some so-called friends and now need them more than ever when I have this huge huge chasm in my life. Do I beg them for their company to help me through the loneliness, or just write them off as bad friends?
There was a thread here last week about whether to give up on love and I thought definately not, but when everything you love is eventually (or quickly) snatched away from you, why bother?
(I am not ready yet to hear that I am being pathetic and feeling sorry for myself, so if you think it please just think it and not write it).