So this post really sums up the quality street we're on. You were too drunk to pay attention or care. Somehow, for you, that's a plus. I want to stress to you that my reason for posting here has nothing to do with me. I'm not offering insights for my benefit. I'm thinking in particular about the young, hungry, insecure and eager bottom boys reading this thread who are lurking and not posting, and their feelings and their needs, and how consistently the crop of so called alpha tops is out of line with the excessive machismo. Some guys like that stuff. But to assume all guys do just because you say so, or some other dude says so, well, that's lame.
So if you want to shit on me for caring about people, be my guest. I really appreciate that you waited until you were passing out loaded to do it, because it makes what I am going to say to you next all the more poignant. I don't know who hurt you, or how many times they did it. I'm sorry that your takeaway in life is to drink the pain away and lash out at strangers for offering the advice "be nicer" (it's a two way street, how does all the bile and rage make YOU feel)? I'm truly sorry man. I want you to hear that. I don't wish it on anyone. But for now, get angry that I said it, curse me out again, maybe you can make fun of my ass this time? It's OK. I can take it all, son.
But think about this exchange and others like it that happen when you drink, and ask yourself when is enough going to be enough? I apologize for being snide with you after you called me a douche for being nice. You can still think I am a douche if you really have to. But under that there's stuff you need to take care of man. Yourself. Your anger. Your fear. So thanks for listening and have a good day.