This is probably the best forum for this rant... I have a pretty good life at the moment. I have a boyfriend with whom I am desperately in love and who feels quite the same. I have 3 jobs going on that keep my head much more above water than I am used to (although I am used to living below the poverty line, lol). And, I am also going back to University to start post-graduate studies. However, I cannot help to have these pangs of complete and utter despair. As if everything is about to go wrong, anxiety over imagined situations, beliefs like I am not the right person for my studies/boyfriend/work. One of the worst parts (for me and what doesn't help with these imagined situations at all) is that these pangs lead directly into binge drinking or eating shithouse take-away or something. Now, I have on odd occasion been to a psych and been diagnosed with depression, which I have swiftly ignored as I haven't wanted to divulge my past with some random. However, it is the fact that when I am with my boyfriend, or involved in deep research, or just reading a good graphic novel, I feel absolutely positively happy. HAPPY! And it is the fast change (in tonight's change, it has been 2 hours since I last spoke to the other half and already I am 5 pints deep and abjectly lost in despair) that really disturbs me. I really just don't know why this is so, or what to do about it, or who to tell. I know I must sound like a whiny douche but, hey, that's how I feel about myself too! Comments/advice good folks of the internet?