i thought of putting this matter to rest since things between billy and i has been a whole lot better and it just seems to get better by the day..he treats me well..spending a large chunk of the day with me,having meals,doing our project and simply chatting with each other..i must say it is fun now that things are so good..and it seem that he really enjoy my company too..
but something happen yesterday and today that really jolted me..yesterday he was chatting with an unknown girl in a chatroom,and he went back to his home without logging out..and i just happened to see the word sex and couldn resist reading..just as a reminder,i know billy and i know he hasnt had sex b4 in his life..so heres the conversation..this are all direct translations and might sound odd..
billy:have u ever made love b4?
girl1:no..u?
billy:yeah once..a mistake i guess...
billy:we didnt really make love,just sort of licking and BJs.me licking her and she licking me.
girl1
h..how was it?
billy:funny to think about it actually..
billy:what?
girl1:how was the sex?
billy:great!
billy:i loved it actually..
girl1:hmm..i miss my bf alot..sometimes i feel like hugging and kissing him..
billy:sometimes both of u wants it..u just have to ask..
and so on...they chatted about wanting to keep their virginity and he said he didnt mind licking since it wouldnt cost anyone anything..the girl was telling him about how she wanted her bf..
and today..it happened again..he went home not loggin out and i couldnt resist reading..he chatted up with another unknown girl..
blablabla
billy:im a bit crazy for sex at the moment
girl 2: r u serious?
billy: yes
billy: quite
billy: xtau nape
girl 2: u must be watching too much porn
blablabla
billy:i want to tell u something..but im worried u wont be open minded enough..
billy:do u watch porn?
girl 2:no
billy:then maybe u wont understand
billy:i went too far with my friend once..
billy:thats all
billy:no sex,just licking and so..
girl 2
nly licking?
billy:yea
girl 2:who did you do it with?
billy:a girl
billy
ne of my friends
girl 2:it was mutual right?
billy:yeah.
girl 2:so whats the problem now?
billy:im addicted
billy:and i dont know what to do
billy:just wanted to find someone to talk to
billy:hello?
billy:u never tried being licked?
girl 2:u can be addicted to licking? (oral/BJ)
girl 2: why?
billy:feels really good
billy:i like it like that
billy:and i dont really know why.
girl 2:do u always do it?
billy:not really
girl 2:have u done it many times?
and the chat stopped there..i know i shouldnt have intruded his privacy in reading those messages but i just couldnt help myself..so what the hell is happening at the moment?there is no 'girl' in his sex stories and im very sure about that..sighhh...this is really adding up to the already confused mind of mine..