My first time was awkward, yes. Unfortunately, I didn't wait for love like I had originally planned. I was 18 and just wanted to get it over with. So I was with this guy, and we had only been dating for four days, but it was his birthday and I just wanted an excuse to get it over with, so we did it. I wasn't allowed to see his penis (It apparently was significantly small, but I wouldn't of cared) and I was shaking the entire time because I have never been fully naked in front of anyone in my entire life. There was no foreplay, no fun, just sex.
We had no lube so I was in pain, and he was wearing a condom, apparently didnt feel anything, and after 30 mins of thrusting, he decided to go into the bathroom to finish. Afterward, he came back in, lied in bed, and fell asleep.
Yes I do regret it, but I have been with significantly better lovers and now I am a pro at sex