My first time was with a woman. It was definately awkward for me. She was slightly older and tricked me into a situation. I felt like I had to go through it or everyone in my fraternity and her sorority would know.
I wasn't even attracted to her and my dick knew it. I had to go down on her first. I didn't like the smell. When I finally mounted her I pounded away for a long time. She finally begged me to stop. I felt depressed and sad. It was seven years before I had sex again . This time with a guy. I told him it was my first time and he was very gentle with me and took his time trying to make me feel comfortable with the whole thing.
Even though I enjoyed it more it was a long time before I had sex with anyone again. I had to process through how I felt about having sex with men. I had to think about what it would mean that I would probably never have a family and that I might loose the family (parents and sisters and brothers). It meant being either an outcast in my church or living the rest of my life in a big lie.
I can definately say I wasted a lot of time trying to be what other people wanted me to be.
On the other hand I can also say that not having had a lot of sex I also missed out on getting a lot of social diseases. Sorry this post is kind of a downer.
I wasn't even attracted to her and my dick knew it. I had to go down on her first. I didn't like the smell. When I finally mounted her I pounded away for a long time. She finally begged me to stop. I felt depressed and sad. It was seven years before I had sex again . This time with a guy. I told him it was my first time and he was very gentle with me and took his time trying to make me feel comfortable with the whole thing.
Even though I enjoyed it more it was a long time before I had sex with anyone again. I had to process through how I felt about having sex with men. I had to think about what it would mean that I would probably never have a family and that I might loose the family (parents and sisters and brothers). It meant being either an outcast in my church or living the rest of my life in a big lie.
I can definately say I wasted a lot of time trying to be what other people wanted me to be.
On the other hand I can also say that not having had a lot of sex I also missed out on getting a lot of social diseases. Sorry this post is kind of a downer.
