Discovering I Was Small

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I am an older man in my 70’s. I have been married many years and my wife was rarely a real sexual person except many years ago. However, it might have to do with my endowment or lack thereof. We dated in the early 1970’s and eventually lived together. At that time I believe our sex life being young was active and good. In fact, my wife had minimal sexual experiences prior to our dating and she thought I had a decent sized penis. So did I! In fact, one of my first sexual experiences the older woman I was with commented that I was big (although we were in a dark room). So, I believed it. In those days other than porn in a theater, the only naked people you saw were in gym showers or similar settings. Most guys seemed to be around the same size soft maybe some might have a big one but everyone else more or less were around the same. Plus, it wasn’t like I was staring or carrying a ruler. Any other early sexual experiences I had at that time any reference to size never occurred. I also assumed the big ones you saw in movie theater porn like John Holmes mostly was out of the ordinary because it was porn.

While young and still living together we had moved to Miami Beach. The move pretty much solidified that we would get married which we then did. We moved into an apartment complex mainly consisting of people around our age or only somewhat older. There was one couple that lived in the complex that we became friendly with as the complex had a pool for anyone to use. Some of the same people including this couple would spend time there on the weekends as we did. Perhaps, a month or so later now that we were all acquainted, the husband (Lenny) asked if we would ever be interested in using their hot tub with them on their enclosed patio. It sounded nice and we came over. Now, interesting that despite the mainly younger crowd that I mentioned, this particular couple (Lenny and Mary) were a bit older perhaps mid 40’s. They actually were former hippies and he had long hair, a beard, she was not particularly attractive although thin and friendly. It didn’t matter really as we all got along great.

If you ever have used a hot tub one of the nice qualities is it can be relaxing if the warm water is not too hot. We went to their apartment patio and without their saying a word they both stripped naked and climbed in. Well we were young at the time and figured that is what you are supposed to do so we stripped and climbed in very quickly as well. Perhaps also being on their turf, so to speak, had us feel that we were supposed to do what they did. Everyone relaxed; we smoked a little weed, and enjoyed a pleasant afternoon. However, they somehow turned the conversation to swinging, and started sharing some of their experiences but in a non-graphic way. It was more like they were educating us on the lifestyle versus trying to convince ourselves of anything.

At one point maybe 30 or 40 minutes of us being there, Lenny got up to sit on the edge and you couldn’t help but notice a very long soft penis hanging down. He didn’t appear erect but it was like a relaxed erection if that makes any sense. In other words, it was big but soft looking hanging down. His wife started talking about how he was well-endowed since it was right there to see and told us a story of how his first sexual experience was with an older neighbor when he was young and mowed her lawn. He then jumped in the conversation saying she told others about this big penis and he had a few fun experiences with older woman and has always been liberal in sexuality. Now, I was feeling myself getting erect in the water so I had to stay seated. I really didn’t know what my wife was thinking but despite our nudity she at that time of life was shy. And, again, there was never any suggestion that we were to have any sex with them. It is sort of difficult to explain but all that I am sharing was more like matter of fact conversation as part of other conversations than a real sexual focus.

One thing I couldn’t help but notice, however, was his penis was bigger in comparison to mine. But, I figured he was just a uniquely endowed guy. I wondered if my wife seeing his penis gave any thought about mine being smaller. So, my mind wasn’t about her attraction to him. Like I said he was an older hippie and I sincerely doubted she would find him of interest sexually. But, secretly, I wondered was she comparing in her mind like I was or had any thought about it? We eventually got out and headed back to our apartment and not one thing was ever discussed about it. Nevertheless, over the course of a few months time we would occasionally get together with them in their hot tub and really only on a few rare occasions would anything be mentioned about swinging or anything of a sexual nature. Well, until one time…..

I actually can’t recall if this offer came while we were in the hot tub with them, or just in a social setting. But, on this occasion they had shared that there was going to be a swinger’s type party the following Sunday at a very well to do persons home with a huge private area and would we like to go. I do recall being excited by the thought but my wife quickly laughed and said no. You don’t have to do anything, there is no pressure, you can watch, relax, no one will bother you; it is all very friendly they explained. My wife still was saying that it wasn’t for us. We got back to our apartment and I really wanted to go. I told my wife we would absolutely not do anything with anyone else but it would be fun to see what all this was like. She kept saying no and finally I said that I was going to go myself. We argued and my wife was upset with me. However, I didn’t back off although in reality I pretty much inwardly knew I likely would chicken out going alone. The next day or two my wife said if I promised we would do nothing with anyone else she would agree to go. I might have felt some guilt for sort of backing her into a corner to go but my excitement ruled.

After work the next day, I knocked on the door of our friends and Lenny let me in as he was by himself. OK, I told him we would go and I explained the agreement with my wife that we would not participate sexually with others. He said that was fine not everybody automatically did anyway. He wrote out directions and said there would be a gate and to use their names as folks who invited us. He also provided me with more details and said there could be 50 couples, a few single women, but everyone knew the rules. You will have fun everyone is real nice he added. Then when I got up to leave he said something at the time that seemed a little strange to me and because it was said without much emphasis I am not even sure that I gave it a lot of thought at that moment. He said, your wife may find it exciting because of course most guys are your size and up. (Now remember at this date and time, I believed I had a decent sized penis).

That Sunday finally arrived and we headed in the early afternoon to this place/home. Yes, I was nervous, excited, etc. Interestingly, my wife seemed more calm and confident than I was. In fact, as we got to the gate I actually discussed maybe we should turn-around but my wife was like we are here let’s go. We followed the instructions and when let inside we were surprised to see the elegance of the home. There was no doubt whomever was holding this event was very wealthy. There were cars parked along the front area and grass at the house and there was a large wooden fence around the house. We knocked on the door and were surprised to see a security guard open it. We realized that as our friends had said this was a secured place.

Inside the home, people were dressed casually, some in dry bathing suits, but not one person was naked. We learned that you took your clothes off (it was optional) once you stepped through the back door where there was a big pool and a few small rooms, a shaded area, etc. They had lockers right outside the door. We stripped off our clothes except my wife just was topless and kept the lower part of her bathing suit on. We looked for our neighbors but didn’t see them but we did see many naked people and even one couple fucking. There were a few others watching but at first we were too embarrassed to stand and watch too. However, what I almost immediately noticed was other men might be erect, partially erect, flaccid, but there were many who had much bigger penises than me. I couldn’t help but do mental measurements and my friend had told the truth, they went my size up. As the day went on, I began to realize I might have the smallest penis there. I also noticed that often the guys with the biggest penises were the most popular to have sex with. One guy had a cock ring around his penis and it was so fat that several of the couples were joking about it and I even saw a few woman grab it just to touch it and laugh with others.

Finally our friends showed up. We spent time with them and also laughed when we observed this behavior with this guy that had the really thick fat penis. Lenny said that’s Pete, he always popular here, after all this is his place, do you want to meet him? It’s OK my wife said, but I said sure. A few minutes later our hippie neighbor called out to Pete, I want to introduce you to some people. Obviously they all knew one another. Pete said hello and talked about first timers. The funny thing was my wife was sitting and Pete was standing so his big although soft penis was sort of eye level for her. I chuckled to myself as she engaged in conversation with him like this tremendous cock wasn’t in her face. During the conversation there were several times when a woman/wife of a couple would come by asking if he was going to join them. So clearly he was popular. Our neighbor wife Mary even commented at one point to Pete, it’s my turn or something to that effect. Lenny joked and said to Mary that something makes Pete a popular guy with you, I wonder what could that be. However, Pete very seriously said to my wife and me that he enjoyed the sound of woman making an “ahh” sound when he first would enter them. I felt he might be turned on by my wife and us being new but it wasn’t like he got erect. However, not being erect was still in thickness like 3x my erect thickness and the continuing observation not only of Pete but other men there was becoming increasingly obvious that I had a small penis.
 

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At a later point in the day, I asked my friend, Lenny, in a joking way was there a size requirement for guys to attend. He replied very matter of fact saying of course not which actually was very upsetting although I kept my composure. It only reiterated what I had now had been realizing seeing so many other naked men including erect men that I was on the small side erect. It definitely appeared that quite a few penises would substantially grow much more than mine from soft to hard which I had never been aware of before. Plus, there also seemed to be an unstated acknowledgement that even amongst these men all larger than myself, that the most valued or desired were the very well-endowed. Penis size definitely mattered or counted in this environment. I also hate to say it, but no woman there ever came onto me like I was seeing with others including Pete who was not a good looking man facially.

We were there maybe two hours and pretty much stuck to ourselves or with Lenny and Mary. At one point, Lenny and Mary got up signaling for us to follow them and entered this room with mats. People were having sex all over the place. I whispered to Mary that we were not going to have sex with anyone else. However, Mary said what about if I give you a blow job. Now the day of course seeing all the nudity and now in this room with sexual acts all around us I was very turned on. I whispered to my wife what Mary had offered and my wife reiterated that she did not want us to have intercourse with others but that would be OK if it was oral and she actually wanted to watch how another woman would do it on me. Mary went down on me and I got fully erect. She whispered to me that Lenny could get so big it was nice to suck a small cock for a change. Now she said it I think like she was complimenting me but in truth it sent a dagger through me. In the meantime with Lenny pretty close by laying on the mat, he said what about me looking at my wife. I don’t know if it was the pressure, the site of all these nude people and sexual activities whether my wife was turned on, but she took a hold of Lenny’s penis and began playing with it but not sucking it. Mary stopped sucking me and leaned over and began sucking on Lenny’s cock. It was amazing how is stretched out in her mouth while my wife just held the base. It wasn’t very thick but long as it easily extended out. Mary moved away when he was fully erect with my wife still holding his cock and she started talking about it to my wife. “Size doesn’t always matter but sometimes Lenny will get so big that I will say you are really big tonight, and as she laughed she added I guess I can say that right now. She then went back down on him and very quickly he moaned and came with her swallowing every drop. Just seeing my wife touching and holding Lenny’s penis had me close and Mary leaned back over and without any difficulty went down to the base and swallowed as I came as well. My wife never had done that and I do remember it felt amazing.

Later we walked around and as the day wore on it became like so many now were engaged in sex. There were a few guys and one especially who looked like a young bank teller who had a really long penis and a woman had pulled him over to be fucked. I remember watching her arch up in what seemed like discomfort at first as he fucked her but they continued and some people gathered around to watch including me. Some of the guys watching grew erect and again I was definitely the smallest one standing there. The other thing that was on my mind was my wife. She had to be seeing the sizes of all the other men. I wondered how that was making her feel about me sexually. I soon learned the answer.

We told Lenny and Mary we were going to head home. We saw Pete near the door where you would go back inside. So out of politeness we thanked him for letting us attend the party. He engaged in conversation with us telling about himself in more detail. Evidently, he was a collector of toy trains and obviously was well to do. But, he shared that there were other collectors and so it was like a group hobby. He also told us how he had got into swinging when a girlfriend told him that many women would enjoy a penis like he had and that he should share it. He handed us a business card and said if we ever wanted to get together and have an experience with him privately to give him a call.

As we drove home we talked about the day. That was quite an experience wasn’t it we both agreed. Our conversation continued and sort of out of the blue my wife said, you know that Pete is a very nice man. I asked what did she mean and she shared there was a few moments where she got to talk to him separately when I had gone to the bathroom or when we were all together and I was engaged in conversation with Lenny or Mary. However, I did think it interesting that my wife brought up about Pete.

That evening in bed reliving the days’ experience and getting sexual I said to my wife do you think you could handle a penis like Pete has? She replied I don’t know it was so big but I guess there were quite a few men that had big penises and the woman seemed fine to handle. It shocked me when she said it because it told me that she had noticed the sizes. Why she then asked, would you want us to meet with Pete? Wow, I thought, she was putting it out there and must have been thinking about it. (more to come)
 

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Nice start, he handle the situation very well. But im not sure if he is small or just a average guy who meet big guys.
 

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I realized i was small when i was 17..With a friend of mine we decided to measure and compare our cocks.My soft penis was bigger but erected mine was largely smaller..My friend's cock was 6,25 in length and 4,9 in girth,me 5,5 in length and 5 in girth..I realized,however,that penis shape matters a lot..His dick was totally straight and with a big cockhead:eek:n the contrary my dick is very curved upwards and visually it looks even shorter..
Sitting next to each other on the couch the difference was more evident by far:my tip ended way before and his cock seemed 2 inches longer and my complex began to start
 
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As I try to recall the next sequence of events my memory is a bit fuzzy on how everything step by step occurred. What I do remember was for a short time period the frequency of sex between my wife and I improved. I am certain it was from the wild thing we did by attending that swinger’s party and perhaps my own excitement or lust was a major factor with initiated sex. But, I know my wife went right along. However, I know as well that when we would be having sex I would inwardly wonder now if she wasn’t fantasizing about all the bigger penises she had seen or had any thoughts now about my size. The other thing I do remember is we avoided Lenny and Mary for a while. I think it was more about my wife’s embarrassment but perhaps we didn’t want to get too close or she worried that Lenny might think she would have sex with him and I know my wife really did not find Lenny of interest despite his larger size.

A few weeks later there was a knock on the door and it was Lenny. Instead of coming into our apartment he motioned for me to join him outside. He asked if everything was alright and I assured him it was. Nevertheless, he was worried that we or especially my wife was upset by all that had occurred. Obviously I couldn’t tell Lenny everything but shared that we just needed to take a step back (although the truth was I didn’t want to). In fact, I wanted to go back and compare more with other guys that I was seeing to either confirm that I was a bit less endowed than most or it was just my first time perceptions. But, I know that at that time I had come to the realization of that truth. Lenny told me that Pete had asked several times since the party about us and shared he really liked my wife. That turned me on and made me nervous at the same time. We parted and I later told my wife of the conversation including what Lenny said about Pete. I asked her if she would want to meet Pete and could she handle a big cock like he had. I remember her clearly saying that “thing” would hurt. Actually, I equally recall that her response made me feel somewhat insecure because the idea that a penis could cause discomfort to that degree was like a masculine aspect that I felt jealous about. I knew mine would never be an intimidating aspect of maleness or a penis that might create some fear and respect and curiosity within women. In other words, my wife had thought about his size because of her response and it made me wonder what she really thought of mine now.

I don’t know how long, maybe only a week or two, but when there were situations where we had sex I would try and bring up about penis size trying to learn my wife’s thoughts about mine. Eventually, I got blunter about it asking what she thought about seeing all the naked guys at the party and their sizes. I asked for it I guess and it sent another dagger to me when she asked do you think that’s the average sizes for men that we saw as just about all the other guys seemed large. I asked how she thought mine compared and she frowned and instead suggested that maybe because it was a swinger’s party that guys with bigger penises was more likely to participate. That again told me what I knew but didn't want to hear. I also asked if she noticed how popular some of the biggest guys like Pete were and wasn’t she at all curious what they would feel like? She never responded. But, I knew what I had seen and how women were responding. Size mattered and I knew it.

We saw Lenny and Mary at the public pool a few weeks later and they asked if we ever would want to go to another party. My wife almost instantly responded that we had fun but it was a one-time thing. Of course I didn’t feel that way but I knew I couldn’t go by myself. We talked in general and there wasn’t much more to it. However, in conversation with Lenny while the girls were in the pool he brought up Pete again and said Pete had specifically asked if we would attend the next party which is why it was brought up. Later when my wife went to bed I called Pete from the card he had given us. I reminded him of whom I was and thanked him for the invite but that my wife was declining. He expressed disappointment and talked about how I was a lucky man to have a shy yet bold enough wife that came to the party. He said he found her real hot for that reason along with her inexperience. Pete was being so friendly on the phone that I commented that I had hoped my wife would try him as I would love to see his big penis fucking her and seeing how she responded. I asked Pete what it was like to have such a thick cock and he was very relaxed and open about sharing his experiences. He said he was proud of it and that women really did enjoy the thickness more than the length and he knew how to use it. He was so relaxed and comfortable in the discussion telling me how women really enjoyed it. I told Pete I would discuss our getting together with my wife because I knew she would enjoy him too. I told Pete that she thought it would hurt though and he laughed. I know how to use it he said again, tell her that won’t happen. He concluded the conversation by telling me to keep in touch and we would figure it out if she would take the opportunity to try.

The next day I told my wife how I had talked to Pete although I did lie and say he had called me and had gotten our number from Lenny. I shared how he said he found her hot, and pretty much told her honestly on the rest of the conversation. My wife asked wouldn’t I be upset or jealous of seeing him with her? I told her I wanted to see her enjoy herself and share in that experience. She remained reluctant. It then hit me to suggest something else. What about if we meet with Pete and just limit things to a hand job? He would agree to that, she asked me? I am sure, he might want to do oral on you but we will be clear about the restrictions. To my shock and excitement she agreed. (to be continued if there is interest)
 

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As I try to recall the next sequence of events my memory is a bit fuzzy on how everything step by step occurred. What I do remember was for a short time period the frequency of sex between my wife and I improved. I am certain it was from the wild thing we did by attending that swinger’s party and perhaps my own excitement or lust was a major factor with initiated sex. But, I know my wife went right along. However, I know as well that when we would be having sex I would inwardly wonder now if she wasn’t fantasizing about all the bigger penises she had seen or had any thoughts now about my size. The other thing I do remember is we avoided Lenny and Mary for a while. I think it was more about my wife’s embarrassment but perhaps we didn’t want to get too close or she worried that Lenny might think she would have sex with him and I know my wife really did not find Lenny of interest despite his larger size.

A few weeks later there was a knock on the door and it was Lenny. Instead of coming into our apartment he motioned for me to join him outside. He asked if everything was alright and I assured him it was. Nevertheless, he was worried that we or especially my wife was upset by all that had occurred. Obviously I couldn’t tell Lenny everything but shared that we just needed to take a step back (although the truth was I didn’t want to). In fact, I wanted to go back and compare more with other guys that I was seeing to either confirm that I was a bit less endowed than most or it was just my first time perceptions. But, I know that at that time I had come to the realization of that truth. Lenny told me that Pete had asked several times since the party about us and shared he really liked my wife. That turned me on and made me nervous at the same time. We parted and I later told my wife of the conversation including what Lenny said about Pete. I asked her if she would want to meet Pete and could she handle a big cock like he had. I remember her clearly saying that “thing” would hurt. Actually, I equally recall that her response made me feel somewhat insecure because the idea that a penis could cause discomfort to that degree was like a masculine aspect that I felt jealous about. I knew mine would never be an intimidating aspect of maleness or a penis that might create some fear and respect and curiosity within women. In other words, my wife had thought about his size because of her response and it made me wonder what she really thought of mine now.

I don’t know how long, maybe only a week or two, but when there were situations where we had sex I would try and bring up about penis size trying to learn my wife’s thoughts about mine. Eventually, I got blunter about it asking what she thought about seeing all the naked guys at the party and their sizes. I asked for it I guess and it sent another dagger to me when she asked do you think that’s the average sizes for men that we saw as just about all the other guys seemed large. I asked how she thought mine compared and she frowned and instead suggested that maybe because it was a swinger’s party that guys with bigger penises was more likely to participate. That again told me what I knew but didn't want to hear. I also asked if she noticed how popular some of the biggest guys like Pete were and wasn’t she at all curious what they would feel like? She never responded. But, I knew what I had seen and how women were responding. Size mattered and I knew it.

We saw Lenny and Mary at the public pool a few weeks later and they asked if we ever would want to go to another party. My wife almost instantly responded that we had fun but it was a one-time thing. Of course I didn’t feel that way but I knew I couldn’t go by myself. We talked in general and there wasn’t much more to it. However, in conversation with Lenny while the girls were in the pool he brought up Pete again and said Pete had specifically asked if we would attend the next party which is why it was brought up. Later when my wife went to bed I called Pete from the card he had given us. I reminded him of whom I was and thanked him for the invite but that my wife was declining. He expressed disappointment and talked about how I was a lucky man to have a shy yet bold enough wife that came to the party. He said he found her real hot for that reason along with her inexperience. Pete was being so friendly on the phone that I commented that I had hoped my wife would try him as I would love to see his big penis fucking her and seeing how she responded. I asked Pete what it was like to have such a thick cock and he was very relaxed and open about sharing his experiences. He said he was proud of it and that women really did enjoy the thickness more than the length and he knew how to use it. He was so relaxed and comfortable in the discussion telling me how women really enjoyed it. I told Pete I would discuss our getting together with my wife because I knew she would enjoy him too. I told Pete that she thought it would hurt though and he laughed. I know how to use it he said again, tell her that won’t happen. He concluded the conversation by telling me to keep in touch and we would figure it out if she would take the opportunity to try.

The next day I told my wife how I had talked to Pete although I did lie and say he had called me and had gotten our number from Lenny. I shared how he said he found her hot, and pretty much told her honestly on the rest of the conversation. My wife asked wouldn’t I be upset or jealous of seeing him with her? I told her I wanted to see her enjoy herself and share in that experience. She remained reluctant. It then hit me to suggest something else. What about if we meet with Pete and just limit things to a hand job? He would agree to that, she asked me? I am sure, he might want to do oral on you but we will be clear about the restrictions. To my shock and excitement she agreed. (to be continued if there is interest)
If? If there is interest? Oh, sir, there is. Please continue.
 
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I called Pete and told him what my wife had agreed to which at first he laughed. But, then he said to me that this was cool with him as my wife was the real thing. I remember that statement and asked what he meant. She is truly inexperienced and not the typical swinger woman that I normally meet with. That makes her really hot. He asked if she had ever experienced someone well-endowed that she ever shared with me before. I said before that party she use to think I was big. He laughed really almost too much but I pretended like I was confident although inwardly I knew I was nothing compared with him and all the other men I had seen at his party. He said well maybe we do this step by step and once she is comfortable with playing with a big cock the next time she will desire more. He actually never asked me my thoughts.

The time had come and it was my wife’s comfort that Pete visit us rather than be on his turf. He showed up nicely dressed and carried a bottle of wine. We sat around talking but you could kind of feel the tension well at least I remember I was. Finally, I said in more of a questioning manner, how do we proceed. Pete said well we all have seen each other naked maybe we start there and without really asking he got up and quickly shed his clothes.

Pete was standing and that big thick penis of his was hanging down like a round fat sausage and for whatever reason now that I was the only other guy present I was a bit embarrassed to get naked as well. My wife seemed a bit reluctant too so I felt I had to strip just to move things along. I pretended like I didn’t notice anything but I thought how could you not notice such a difference of two men in penis size? My wife maybe got fully undressed and I can’t remember that for sure. Instead, we ended up on our pull out sofa and Pete was next to me and my wife on the other side of him. “I’ll just lie back, Pete said, and looking at my wife instructed, “You can go ahead and touch it all you want. My wife boldly moved her hand right to his penis grasping it and began a very soft moving up and down. To my total surprise, Pete then turned over looking at me and said you can help her too there’s plenty enough for you both. I didn’t care at that second what my wife might have thought, Pete somehow knew I was curious to know what a big penis like his felt like. I remember my wife moving her hand away as I now grasped and squeezed his big but still pretty soft penis. It totally filled my hand and felt so different in sensation than my own. I recall that my fingers did not touch unless I squeezed it. Pete had a smile on his face and said both of you can work it and my wife also placed her hand back around and pulled up. I could feel the sensation of his penis filling out and it was nothing like what it felt with my own. It was just so squishy like there was so much of it as it began hardening and lengthen where it quickly was fully swollen and I guess because it was so thick and heavy when letting go it would hang curved down rather than up like mine. The thickness was what really was the most impressive and I asked how big it was around. He said, “Do you have a tape measure?”

My wife literally got up and moved over to a dresser drawer where she kept her sewing items and ran back with a cloth tape. She obviously was excited. She held his penis up and handed me the tape making me her partner. I circled it right at the thickest part below the head and it was 7” around. I then took the tape and pressed in gently on his public hair holding the tape up along the top of his cock to the tip and announced it’s just about 8” long. I started to put the tape down and my wife said what about yours? Now of course I didn’t want to measure next to this immense penis but was also embarrassed not to. I did the length and even bone pressed it was about 5 ¼ long and then I did the circumference at the thickest part which was a shade under 5” around. So 5 by 5 my wife confirmed and with a smile held up Pete’s cock admiringly. Sorry honey my wife laughed I guess everybody can’t be 8” and big like this as she stroked looking at his cock. She clearly had no idea of how much that secretly made me realize just how small and inadequate my cock was overall compared to Pete and all the guys at his party, although it was not said in any putdown way. Instead, I felt my wife was simply complimenting Pete and the sexual tension only increased. Just imagine a penis as big as a cucumber next to a much shorter pickle. There was no comparison quite frankly and there was no comparison even with Lenny or most of the guys at that party. It was now beyond any question for me how I ranked in penis size. It left me with angry feelings I still have today. I hated Pete and guys for having dicks so much bigger than mine yet at the same time had strong envy and admiration. Just the way all those big cocks and how Pete’s looked was something to be admired but also put me in my place as so inferior compared to them. It was and is so unfair.

I don’t know what my wife was feeling at the time stroking Pete’s big cock but I moved and went down on her while Pete just laid back enjoying her hand. I inserted two fingers fucking her pussy with them and she was really wet. I knew she was turned on by the way she was pushing back on my hand and tongue. Then what is burned into my memory forever, is she suddenly moved away, got up on her knees and moved over climbing on top of Pete and aiming his penis right at her vagina. The limitation of just doing a handjob was evidently over. Pete stopped her and said let me get on top because it will be easier for you. He then looked as if asking if it was OK although he wasn’t asking. Things were happening so quickly. In fact, it was not only my wife but my lust to see him fuck her too. I wanted to see if she could handle such a man-sized organ unlike mine. Plus, this was my until recent, shy reserved wife now so sexual and willing to fuck another man than her husband. And, not only another man, but a man with a huge penis so superior to mine. I knew I could never come close to what I imagined a woman would feel from such a big cock, and wondered if she could handle it. Did size matter like it seemed at that party? I wanted to see her fucking Pete yet feared it too, but there was no stopping it.

My wife never even sought any feedback from me as she was now in her own world. She promptly moved and lay down on her back with her legs spread and bent at the knees. I still can picture Pete getting on top and his penis hanging down like a horse so thick and long. I watched from behind and in this position you could see the base at the balls which were tight and not that big; and his shaft looked like the size of a paper towel tube. However, instead of trying to insert that big thing into her, he started doing oral on her. I noticed how he would pull her vaginal lips apart with his fingers obviously trying to widen the entrance preparing her. He had said he knew how to make women go ahhhh at the party and now I was seeing him knowing what he possessed in manhood and what to do first. My wife was making soft sounds and you could tell she was enjoying his oral efforts.

I think Pete couldn’t hold back and after a few minutes got up on his knees and very gently placed the big head of his cock at her vagina. (This was pre-AIDS and everyone used birth control and perhaps naively didn’t use other protection) Pete just let the big head of his cock rest there without moving. My wife must have been so horny that is was her who pressed forward and surprisingly the head just slipped right in a couple inches without any seeming resistance. The moan my wife let out still haunts me to this day. I can’t even describe it except that it was like a sound of the release of all tension. Pete began now very deliberate slow movement just easing his penis back and forth not pressing into her but allowing her to get use to just the small but thick portion inside her. Watching now from above them I could see the lips of her vagina wrapped around his penis so wide and as he slowly moved back and forth but instead of moaning she started giggling. She reached down underneath Pete grasping the shaft of his cock to see how much was there I believe. Her fingers could obviously not touch and she laughed a little harder. I still remember what she said, “Holy shit, and I don’t have the half of it.” Pete grunted and said you will but I don’t want to hurt you. "It feels so big and like it is so deep already." Pete laughed and said then feel this and pushed gently forward. That ahhh sound came right out of her lips like Pete described women would do when he fucked them. More than half his penis probably a good 6” now were inside her. You, OK, Pete asked her. She breathless said, “Yes” and looked up at Pete and said fuck me. Honey there is more to go, Pete responded. However, he started sawing his penis back and forth but seemingly careful not to go in deeper yet. “Oh my god, honey, it feels so good” as she looked over at me. I couldn’t believe she was handling his huge cock so easily and I moved behind Pete to watch. You could see her juices on his cock as his plowed in and out starting to go faster. Yet, there were still some inches left that he did not push into her. My wife raised her legs to wrap around Pete’s back and was grunting, moaning, and making sounds I never heard when we had sex. They continued like this for a few minutes and I saw my wife on occasion without any shame start rubbing her clit enjoying their sex. She eventually started talking to Pete as if I was not in the room. "You feel so good, I never have felt anything like it, do it deep" and a lot of moans or yes comments she added. Finally she announced, "oh I am so close, so close." Suddenly Pete slammed the remainder of his penis fully inside grinding her with that immense penis now completely inside her. She literally screamed with pleasure and announced she was cumming and made sounds of an intense orgasm. Pete held that huge penis completely inside of her as she had an intense orgasm in such a way had never seen her do before, like she was shaking. After about 15 seconds, Pete began fucking her much faster fully inside and pulling back where you could hear that slapping sound. He was really pounding her. My wife was endlessly moaning and then looked at me and said my name, commented it feels so good, and laughed with pleasure and looked at Pete and stated “Size counts oh my God, it counts.”

Pete all of a sudden stopped and pulled out and my wife cried out “No” looking at Pete in disappointment. He smiled and told her turn over. Not in my ass my wife looked worried. " No, but you will enjoy it this way too." She turned over like an obedient person and Pete got on top of her with his legs over hers pressed together. I could never ever consider a position like this because my penis would hardly reach inside having to be long enough to make it past her closed legs and rear. My wife was so turned on that Pete had no problem pushing completely inside. "Holy holy shit" my wife commented "it feels so huge, like this." I assumed because her legs were pressed together it only increased the sensations. "Fuck me, Pete, oh God this feels amazing." It almost sounded like she was crying but not a sad but happy cry. With their backs to me, I started furiously jacking my cock. In this position you couldn’t see anything of Pete’s cock but I could see my wife’s responses.

All of this left me with such conflicted feelings. I was so turned on seeing my former shy and somewhat non-sexual wife fucking a huge cocked Pete and loving it. But, that also was the conflict. She loved it! There was not one familiar sound from her, one response, or even having an orgasm from our fucking ever that we had experienced from our intercourse. She would have orgasms using a vibrator or occasionally when I did oral but never from my penis fucking her. Now she was commenting on how good it felt, had an orgasm, talking about how his big penis size counted, and so on. In fact, in this position she was moaning once again and making sounds I never heard before. If this was a science experiment it clearly documented how a much bigger penis could fuck her better and provide sensations of pleasure mine couldn’t. As I said earlier, I was both admiring and hating or so jealous with Pete at the same time. I would never be the sexual man he was nor as it was becoming increasingly obvious in general either with any woman. In fact, I might have in an odd way resented my wife for enjoying Pete’s big penis as much as she was. However, the reality was I couldn’t be that upset with her as simple observation demonstrated how size made a difference and there was no debating it any more. My small cock simply did not compete with larger men like Lenny and especially at the moment Pete. It clearly was a totally different sexual experience and sensations for her. I wanted to cum but I also wanted to fuck her after Pete to see her responses with me. I wondered would she remain stimulated as she was, would Pete have put her in a state of arousal that would simply continue? The other thing that was so disconcerting was how she was able to fully take in his big organ. Mine would come up pretty short inside her in comparison from now on I realized. In any event, I watched as Pete continued to pound my wife now with her moans and comments seeming to have another mini-orgasm. Finally, my wife whispered something and a minute or less later, Pete jammed his penis again this time grinding from behind and he made loud moans which seemed to me over the top as he announced he was cuming. However, right at that moment he pulled out and ejaculated on her back (maybe he was afraid of getting her pregnant). He then took a sheet and wiped her off.

Pete moved off and my wife turned over looking tired. But, I said I got to fuck you now and she looked slightly annoyed but I didn’t give her an opportunity to say no. I got on top and my cock slid into what felt like an empty space. I am not kidding about it, she was so wet and perhaps expanded that I felt like my cock was inside but with only a very slight grip. The lack of the vaginal grip only made me feel even smaller from that sensation. I tried to fuck her as hard as I could and she made a few moans which I felt were fake. In my mind I imagined what it was like to have a penis like Pete’s to fuck with and that caused me to almost instantly cum.

We now all lay there in bed and both my wife and Pete lit up cigarettes but I was a non-smoker. Pete’s big penis now was soft but still almost as thick appearing. My wife smiled and said that was awesome. Look, Pete said, holding his soft cock, you broke it and laughed. The frustration of course for me was his penis now in its relaxed state was still way bigger than mine. We now sat and talked about nothing in particular and finally my wife got up and headed to the bathroom.Pete looked at me and said, “You are good, right?” I said of course and laughed and feeling bold reached over and held his cock and said she sure enjoyed that. What I remember in holding it was it had feeling of zero weight to it as if it was now made of air despite being so big. Pete smiled and said, “I told you women love it.” I let go and said I could see.

My wife came back and Pete got up now to head to the bathroom. My wife started to dress and I commented that she sure had enjoyed herself. I asked her in a whisper to tell me what it felt like. She first kissed me and then told me it was like every nerve ending within her was stimulated. It really felt like you are so full and stretched but not unpleasant. It just felt so intense and you can’t think of anything else but what you are feeling. How did my cock feel after him? Honestly, it was at the moment hard to feel you but look how big his is so that’s probably why? So it felt better than mine? Don’t get upset she responded. You feel fine, it was just exciting to be with someone so big and different but I wouldn’t want that thing every night. Now, her words I think were meant to encourage me but her description of the sensations only struck at me like a knife. I knew what she was saying was true and it only reiterated everything. Pete came back a few minutes later and seeing my wife dressed he then dressed to as did I. We all hugged and Pete left saying he hoped we would do this again but would not be pushy about it. I asked my wife if she would want to and she said it was up to me. So, it clearly wasn’t a no.

However, not maybe 4-6 weeks later I had a job offer that involved us moving maybe only 50 miles or so. But, we had a lot of things that occupied us during the next few months and when we tried to get back in touch with Lenny and Pete, they had either changed numbers or moved. So, it ended up being a one-time thing with Pete. Nevertheless, it has stuck with me all these years. I know my wife over the years became less and less sexual and I have always wondered if I had a bigger penis if things would have been different. She definitely had responses that I never experienced and two orgasms from fucking and in all these years zero from just our fucking without some other stimulation. I have no doubt in fact it made a difference and it didn’t help to discover my size was on the smaller end as well from those experiences years ago. It still makes me so envious of guys better hung than me and angry that things are that unfair. I am sure other guys here who have smaller sizes probably know what I am talking about. But, it was tough to discover.