I watch straight porn, and not occasionally, but quite often. I have to admit that I have a special feeling for straight men. This feeling is so intense to the point where I instantly become so interested in a man who I previously thought was gay after I find out he is straight or part straight. When I was in college, I developed a friendship with a bunch of gay men. We always hung up together, I've hooked up with some of them, but not very often because it's not as fun as I thought. But one day, one of those guys told us that he somehow developed a lust for women's bodies. He then got a girlfriend, and got married, now he's a father of two. What's uncanny is, this guy never got my attention when I thought he was homosexual. Physically he is not my type, and his hobbies are dull to me. But after I learned he's into pussies, I can't help eyeing on him when we hang out, and I proactively ask our mutual friends about his life and other aspects about him, which I never did. Sometimes I even fantasize about him. How come my attitude towards an individual altered to the opposite simply because of a change in his sexuality? I'm bewildered and terrified.