throb919: [quote author=joe22xxx link=board=relationships;num=1061335009;start=20#31 date=08/25/03 at 20:49:58]Here I go again, trying to get this "straight " in my mind. First responding to Dee's post above: since I come from an affectionate family, when the men kiss or hug each other, it doesn' t have any sexual feelings to it...[/quote]
A couple of thoughts--mostly about how expressions of affection among males of the species can be, well, complicated.
It occurs to me that joe22xxx more freely expresses his affection for heterosexual men than I do. As a gay man, I probably "compartmentalize" or censure myself sometimes--most of the time--with hetero male friends so as not to make them feel uncomfortable or have anything be misinterpreted. I realize that with the straight male friends I
do hug, they took the initiative first--they reached out to me. Weird, huh? And I'm an affectionate person.
I don't think that affection necessarily leads to sexual expression. I guess that's my point...
I'm with Joe (and other posters) on this one. (Not sure I understood your "progression," Dee. Maybe I didn't read it right.) And the difference between affection and sexual expression is pretty clear-cut to all of us--men, women, hetero, homo, uncles, Moms, great-aunt Ethel. It's not just that it's taboo, Joe--you just flat-out don't
want to "slip a little tongue" to males or female family members. You feel affection for them--and there's nothin' sexual about it.
So anyway--Saturday night I ran into my friends Charlene and Clay at a party. (This
is going somewhere.) Charlene and I have been friends for years; Clay is her "new" husband of about a year. Nice guy. Haven't really spent much time with him--but we were all having a great time at the party and decided to go out to dinner together. Clay and I "got" each other's jokes and cut-up all night--to the point that Charlene threatened to "separate you boys." At the end of the evening, we walked out of the restaurant together, continued to chat before saying our goodbyes. When the time came, I hugged and kissed Charlene (on the lips), then turned to Clay and extended my hand. I expected it would turn into one of those two-handed shakes or a handshake-with-a-pat-on-the-back that's almost a hug--but, Clay gave me a big ol' hug
and a kiss. I sensed that I bristled and hoped he hadn't noticed. It was (to him) the most natural thing in the world; it should've been to me.
He was much more comfortable expressing affection than I was.
Clay is from a big Italian family; I'm whitebread WASP-y Southern. I don't kiss
any "het" men. I come from a loving family, but we lack the demonstrative Mediterranean affection Joe enjoys. So add cultural difference to the mix.
Then I realized I wouldn't've been comfortable kissing a
gay man on the street in front of the restaurant either. I'm not closeted, not particularly worried about being "fag-bashed" (North Carolina is way more civilized than a lot of people think)--but still have a sense of appropriateness instilled in me somewhere. Or something. I generally don't like "getting in people's face" about being gay, y'know...? (Posts here notwithstanding.) No PDAs with the b/f either, but I think I'd feel that way with a g/f, too. (Totally moot point.) But growing up in the South, I'm probably expressing a geographic bias, too.
So I'm thinking about affection and why we feel the way we do and why we
do what we do. Gay, straight, men, women, cultural, regional, geographic, "hetero-phobic"...I may just have to hug (and kiss) a few more straight guys--and try to feel more comfortable doing so...
Weird.