I miss my more than an FWB, Ashlee.
Because of two shallow jerks I used to call friends, I lost contact with a beautiful young woman who, despite being 17 years younger than I,sent me for such an emotional loop that I'm not sure I'm back upright yet .
She left here going back home to Virginia , and I lost contact, and I feel I may never hear or see her again-
This woman was such an emotional high that I even composed 3 songs for her- songs she will never hear, never critique, and never even know are about her.
Some nights, I stare at the sky and wonder if she's looking at it as well.
I buy roses , and scatter the petals on the wind or a lake , as the thoughts OF the roses are for her.
I think of things we used to do together, and I just want to climb the tallest building in the world and SCREAM my love for her to all the world.
But most of all, I just miss her like crazy.
I lost her- and I lost big.
I wish I could just see her one more time.