DizzyGus: [quote author=DeeBlackthorne link=board=relationships;num=1062815559;start=20#33 date=09/21/03 at 16:54:44]Nice post, Dizzy.
I guess the one thing I wondered particularly about your post was
how exactly you got so comfortable with showing affection like that? You remind me of a friend from undergraduate school. Complete jock, through and through, and he told me stories about private school. Essentially, and I wouldn't say
coerced, but... he learned affection from his teammates. Whether it was grabass or a hug from behind or a playful grasp at the package, his buddies in practice taught him that there's nothing underlying these moments except what you just said: honest feelings. And even then, it was to the extent that they all horsed around with each other, so it made sense to be comfortable since it didn't mean anything...
On a couple of occasions, this friend of mine would drop by in the wee hours of the night because he needed someone to talk to. Granted, I was a little grouchy at the 3 a.m., 4 a.m. wake-up call, but he usually had some tears he needed to let out. He would collapse his frame on my chest or shoulder, or he would lay his head in my lap; I'd rub his back and let him do his thing. It didn't make me uncomfortable; somehow, it was always a pleasant surprise -- as if someone was
strange about his affection, unexpected, but it was still okay.
I've had a couple of friends over time who were comfortable with affection, and I suppose I just adapted accordingly. Mom's always insisted upon it and the family's cool, and if any bud just wanted to grapple me into a lock... well... nuzzle nuzzle for them, too.[/quote]
How did I get so comfortable with it? Well its never been something that I was UN-comfortable with.
When I was a kid I wrestled around with my little friends all the time. We had plenty of playful contact but we also hugged each other a bit too.
When I got into middle and high school I really started to grow (in SEVERAL ways :

) and I started to be the subject of a LOT of attention. I liked all the physical affection that was being shown to me and I liked to reciprocate it. That meant being affectionate (both in a friendly way and in a sexual way) with girls and also with my guy friends. Grabass had its beginnings way back then as did actually hugging and kissing other boys.
College was just more of the same and so is adulthood. (I sure as hell don't feel like an adult though! ;D) And like I said before it may be because I am a big dude but nobody has ever said anything negative to me about it.
Those people around me just know to expect this kind of stuff from me and they are happy to let me be ME!
Gus 8)