I did not say that your feeling were irrelevant universally, of course they have meaning to you. I said that they were irrelevant to the issue of whether or not God actually exists. I didn't say that your leg meant nothing to you I said that losing your leg was of little consequence to God if he did exist. Please try to read more carefully.
Also I do not think Humility is always irrational. I was asking if you still think its good when it is, and it can be. The reason I asked if it was a gift is because I was asking if it necessarily had to be, i.e. didn't you develop your humility all by yourself, by realizing that being obtuse and thinking you could walk with one leg wasn't really working, so you had to put away a false pride in order to ask for assistance from other human beings. What did god have to do with that? Seems like the reality of being a social being made you humble.
The fact of the matter is that yes, you are being looked at, by other human beings. Why is it so hard to give the credit to them without saying that they are acting as God's agents? Why can't people just be good nice people and want to help out a disabled man???? Why is God needed? IS it because we are all inherently evil, so when there are a few who do good deeds, it must be God's intervention? What kind of view of humanity is that? Yes, you lost your leg, it was your fault, and now the people you once despised are now coming to your aid, maybe when you felt that you would never come to theirs, and maybe that makes you feel a little guilty. You feel that they are somehow better than you, and your ego can't take that, so you accredit their compassion with an outside source (I don't expect you take this part seriously, and i expect you to deny it vehemently, but take a look inside your own motivations and find out what really moves you, those are the devils inside).
The bottom line is, we have different views on reality. I will work as hard as I can to change yours, because I feel they are wrong, and evil. But I will not force you to change your views, I respect your right to have them if you want, but I will not sit silently and watch a fellow human being get lost in disillusionment. I see certain things as being irrational, you see them too, but choose the ignore them. I want to lift the cover from your eyes.