I read the question and decided to write something. Then, read further down and became ashamed at my lack of ability to express myself in comparison with your posts. And this isn't the first time.
How can someone else continuously describe me, my feelings and my thoughts better than I can? I'm all ears.
Mr. OP - Relationships are different. You can't apply the same rule to everyone of them. For me, sex was a vital part of any relation. But, now I think the degree of importance decreases as the time spent together increases and, ideally, the bond gets stronger.
In my "travelling is better than arriving" motto days, I would have dumped my bf for lack of it. Would I do that to my husband now? No way. He is my companion for life and I am not going to chose any deficiency over commitment. WOuld you leave your loved one because she/was incapacitated in a different way? I hope not.
And some might argue that it is easy to say that due my marriage being an open one. No. I thought about it and questioned myself before. I'm quite sure of this.
@Scarletbegonia - Again, I learnt something new. I am demisexual. I didn't even know the word existed. As someone who earns a living based on information, I feel further ashamed because of my lack of it. Exposed here from the beginning.
I agree with all the rest. I can't think of being with a guy without any emotions thrown in and that is proven. To me by myself over and over again. If only the morons of LPSG could get that.
Part of your message is already stolen for future use by myself. I am not sorry.
@AlteredEgo - I will use some of your wording in the future, too. Because I can't come up with better.
I cannot lay with strangers. I've tried it. I hate it. It makes me feel dirty, and not in a good way. It doesn't have to be love, but there has to be intense, mutual like, and the potential for real friendship, a life-long bond that transcends sex, must be present.
About your relationship with your husband AND your feelings, I rarely feel so much affection. But my husband woke up to my sobbing. It might be strange coming from a stranger. I hope I am not offending.
I was getting ready to write my opinions about your husband but then I read your last sentence. And decided not to in the fear of hurting your feelings.
II can only hope that he finds the wisdom to thank his creator for having you in his life, repent for the misery he created, pray for more opportunities to make up for the past and act on them.
I bow with respect.