In my posting I have tried to be as honest about my sexual orientation as I know how to be. But, in the end, it is all still a guess.
At age fifteen I thought I was like all other boys of that age; I was horny all the time in what I have to call a generalized state. The endowments of my peers which I observed in the locker room excited me, but many of the girls, especially those with ample breasts also stirred me. In my mind I could conjure up all kinds of wonderful encounters with both the girls and the boys. But, my big break came when during the last two years of high school I developed a friendship with a boy, a friendship which soon became much more than a friendship. Together we explored a part of our sexuality that we had not considered before. We became lovers, learning all about male-to-male sex by doing. Did that make us gay? hardly, and strangely we never thought of ourselves as anything but very lucky ordinary guys who happened to have the opportunity and the privacy for a real sexual relationship. We both went on the discover the joys of heterosexual bonding and sex. Did that qualify us as heterosexual? Although we both married, to this day we still treasure the memory of the two years of homosexual bonding which we had. That old feeling remains; he remains my best and dearest male friend. Obviously our heterosexual leanings were strong, but neither of us has ever doubted the value of our sexual life on that other side of our sexuality. THE LESSON TO BE LEARNED IS TO GO SLOW IN DEFINING YOUR SEXUALITY TOO NARROWLY. HUMAN BEINGS ARE MARVELOUSLY DIFFERENT FROM EACH OTHER AND MARVELOUSLY SIMILAR ALSO.