Don’t know if Bottom or top

There's no such dichotomy. It's not as if anal intercourse is the only thing that MSM get up to.

Do whatever feels right for you. That may involve topping and/or bottoming on terms that work for you, or it may involve neither of these things. If you try to box yourself into what others expect of you you'll only cause yourself misery, whereas if you focus on what actually fits then you'll probably wind up having some fun.
 
I don’t have the stamina to be a top and I have had too many medical issues with my ass that I’m nervous to let it be used.

I don’t know what to do.
Straight people, and some gay people too, think that if if two men are to have sex it MUST involve anal sex and that gay men are strict bottoms or tops. That is not true. You can have hot gay sex without anal. Make out, suck each others dicks, rub dicks together, there is a lot of hot stuff to do that is not anal.
 
It’s not like you have to be boned up a wall and unable to move after. Explore and try things. I’ve only let two guys fuck me before… not because I didn’t have the opportunity but because my ass has to be earned and it’s kind of so much better when someone deserves it. I’ll grind and let them touch it, but no penetrating until I trust them and feel comfortable with them. Then they basically die inside because I’m so tight and they aren’t used to being strangled. It has earned some names. The dick strangler and the black hole. Lol

When you stay tight, everything feels so strong and intense. And you can always blow and blow. But let them earn it and don’t give it up easily, it’s hot waiting and making them ache for it. Then watching them whine because you destroy them hahaha