Now I suppose this might sound weird... I am embarrassed by the topic, but I feel like I should discuss it, or otherwise I will get crazy of it.
I am bisexual, but I get REALLY nervous about the idea of being in a long-term relationship with a guy. One gay friend tried to analyze why that's the case... and after thinking it through for a long time, I think the conclusion that I came to is.... pretty odd. There's only one scenario where this could play itself out.
Let's say we'd have a child (yeah to make it very equal let's pretend that the option featuring a woman also means that she's impotent and we have to adopt one), and things get rough and someone has to stop working and stay at home with the child.
If I picture myself with a woman in such a scenario, then I'm completely ok with that! This is the 21st century, I wanted a strong and independent woman, so yeah, this works.
But if I picture myself with a man, then I suddenly would feel very emasculated. I don't know what that says about me.... is it like... a woman can do anything, but I'll still feel that "I'm the man", but if I'm with a guy, I will feel nervous whenever or not I am "the man" in the relationship?
This is kind of weird. I mean I've been laughed out, mocked so many times that I technically just walk the streets thinking that every stranger just makes fun of me. And yet I somehow get wrapped up in this topic and cling onto preferring girls by any means possible, because with girls I don't seem to have problems, and I did have several crushes on girls, unlike guys. But my gay friend (he's got a boyfriend, so he's not trying to get with me) he points out how most of my porn collection features males and other things, which makes him question why I'm so against the idea of being with a guy. All of this just gets me uncomfortable. I don't know who I am and... I just figured I'd ask for some opinions here.
Thanks for reading!
I am bisexual, but I get REALLY nervous about the idea of being in a long-term relationship with a guy. One gay friend tried to analyze why that's the case... and after thinking it through for a long time, I think the conclusion that I came to is.... pretty odd. There's only one scenario where this could play itself out.
Let's say we'd have a child (yeah to make it very equal let's pretend that the option featuring a woman also means that she's impotent and we have to adopt one), and things get rough and someone has to stop working and stay at home with the child.
If I picture myself with a woman in such a scenario, then I'm completely ok with that! This is the 21st century, I wanted a strong and independent woman, so yeah, this works.
But if I picture myself with a man, then I suddenly would feel very emasculated. I don't know what that says about me.... is it like... a woman can do anything, but I'll still feel that "I'm the man", but if I'm with a guy, I will feel nervous whenever or not I am "the man" in the relationship?
This is kind of weird. I mean I've been laughed out, mocked so many times that I technically just walk the streets thinking that every stranger just makes fun of me. And yet I somehow get wrapped up in this topic and cling onto preferring girls by any means possible, because with girls I don't seem to have problems, and I did have several crushes on girls, unlike guys. But my gay friend (he's got a boyfriend, so he's not trying to get with me) he points out how most of my porn collection features males and other things, which makes him question why I'm so against the idea of being with a guy. All of this just gets me uncomfortable. I don't know who I am and... I just figured I'd ask for some opinions here.
Thanks for reading!