What a strange year this has been! It was about a year ago that I arranged my wife's first BBC experience, which is something I've been trying to get to happen for YEARS. She was quite nervous, because the bull was so much bigger than me.
5" and skinny is all the cock she knew for 15 yrs. She made do for so long, but when she finally got her first big cock, it was a game changer. He made her cum in amazing new ways, and he fucked her for 6 hrs, giving her 4 nuts along the way.
It was after that experience that I started noticing that I couldn't make my wife cum like I once could. While most guys would find this troubling, I found it strangely exciting.
Soon, she found her first steady boyfriend that lived nearby, who was also swinging a nice thick 8" cock, and she quickly found herself taking it multiple times a way. My wife and him would go meet up at a park after 9pm and fuck in public so other people could see them. She'd come home 4-5 nights a week, plugged with a jeweled buttplug, with instructions to remove the plug and suck his cum out of her, which I was happy to do, as I'm happy to eat cum any chance I can.
Soon, her bull was inviting other friends, and I realized it'd been many weeks since I fucked my wife...but I wasn't terribly bothered, because I could clearly see she was getting it better now than she ever had. Even when she decided to be nice and let me try, it's just obvious that I was rendered ineffective. But once again, when many men would be deeply bothered by this, I was incredibly turned on by the fact that my wife's holes were being ruined for me.
Now, I spend almost all of my time in my chastity device, and things have progressed to the point where I'm not allowed to fuck my wife anymore. Because I spend so much time in my chastity device, my already embarrassingly small completely flaccid penis has gotten even smaller, but for some reason, again, this is incredibly arousing to me.
It didn't take long after encountering a bull that wanted to see me wear female panties while he fucked my wife, for me to discover that something about that element of sissification was deeply moving and I wanted to explore it further.
Holy shit, I was becoming a sissy. And I wasn't a bit bitter about it. In fact, I was quite enjoying it. I then caught myself thinking one day, "You know, I could take my tiny little dicklet, have the shaft removed, and turn my head into an actual sissy clit! Might even be able to have my balls removed, and perhaps fashion some sort of vagina-like structure out of my scrotum."
It's just been amazing to see this progression move so quickly, and how incredibly comfortable I am with it. It doesn't bother me to not get to fuck anyone...I get more enjoyment out of watching superior men fuck my wife, and it's not even close.
The most surprising thing is that, due to my wife's bull deciding that since I'm not fucking women anymore, then I shouldn't be able to call myself bisexual, and should instead refer to myself as gay. I can't really argue--every time I watch porn, it's not the woman that gets me excited, it's watching the well hung man that excites me.
I fully realize that it's only a matter of time now until a man takes my wife away from me, but that's okay. As long as I'm allowed to continue to serve as a cuck, I can live with that. The biggest adjustment is going to be only being allowed to masturbate by fucking my sissy pussy with a toy.
I'm wondering how much of an outlier I am here, in regards to how I've openly embraced and enjoyed my new role. Do other cucks find such fulfillment in their roles as I seem to?
5" and skinny is all the cock she knew for 15 yrs. She made do for so long, but when she finally got her first big cock, it was a game changer. He made her cum in amazing new ways, and he fucked her for 6 hrs, giving her 4 nuts along the way.
It was after that experience that I started noticing that I couldn't make my wife cum like I once could. While most guys would find this troubling, I found it strangely exciting.
Soon, she found her first steady boyfriend that lived nearby, who was also swinging a nice thick 8" cock, and she quickly found herself taking it multiple times a way. My wife and him would go meet up at a park after 9pm and fuck in public so other people could see them. She'd come home 4-5 nights a week, plugged with a jeweled buttplug, with instructions to remove the plug and suck his cum out of her, which I was happy to do, as I'm happy to eat cum any chance I can.
Soon, her bull was inviting other friends, and I realized it'd been many weeks since I fucked my wife...but I wasn't terribly bothered, because I could clearly see she was getting it better now than she ever had. Even when she decided to be nice and let me try, it's just obvious that I was rendered ineffective. But once again, when many men would be deeply bothered by this, I was incredibly turned on by the fact that my wife's holes were being ruined for me.
Now, I spend almost all of my time in my chastity device, and things have progressed to the point where I'm not allowed to fuck my wife anymore. Because I spend so much time in my chastity device, my already embarrassingly small completely flaccid penis has gotten even smaller, but for some reason, again, this is incredibly arousing to me.
It didn't take long after encountering a bull that wanted to see me wear female panties while he fucked my wife, for me to discover that something about that element of sissification was deeply moving and I wanted to explore it further.
Holy shit, I was becoming a sissy. And I wasn't a bit bitter about it. In fact, I was quite enjoying it. I then caught myself thinking one day, "You know, I could take my tiny little dicklet, have the shaft removed, and turn my head into an actual sissy clit! Might even be able to have my balls removed, and perhaps fashion some sort of vagina-like structure out of my scrotum."
It's just been amazing to see this progression move so quickly, and how incredibly comfortable I am with it. It doesn't bother me to not get to fuck anyone...I get more enjoyment out of watching superior men fuck my wife, and it's not even close.
The most surprising thing is that, due to my wife's bull deciding that since I'm not fucking women anymore, then I shouldn't be able to call myself bisexual, and should instead refer to myself as gay. I can't really argue--every time I watch porn, it's not the woman that gets me excited, it's watching the well hung man that excites me.
I fully realize that it's only a matter of time now until a man takes my wife away from me, but that's okay. As long as I'm allowed to continue to serve as a cuck, I can live with that. The biggest adjustment is going to be only being allowed to masturbate by fucking my sissy pussy with a toy.
I'm wondering how much of an outlier I am here, in regards to how I've openly embraced and enjoyed my new role. Do other cucks find such fulfillment in their roles as I seem to?
