It's impossible to be the only one with a moral compass in your circle since everyone has one, it just might not line up with yours. You do seem more than just 'somewhat' narcissistic but you might just be getting lost in translation a bit.
Not quite sure what to make of this. maybe you could elaborate more on what you mean? For example did you delibrately turn down scholarships/university places because you didn't care about education? And what do you mean "as a title"? For me educaiton is somehting you do because you want to, although I'm reffering to Higher Education obviously since in most countries school is compulsory up to the age of 16-18.
If all your friends genuinely want to be fitter/healthier etc. but give up after trying it with you for a bit then it's probably you. Maybe not intentionally(for example you could be starting them off at a fitness level that's too high for them and discouraging them or you might not be a very good teacher or something) but you probably aren't helping as much as you think.
Do you mean you can't physically share the experience with your friends or do they refuse to even talk about it? Also in regards to them being unable to come because they're broke then that's probably not their fault unless they blew all the money on something stupid. I'm not sure what you mean by "scared" though.
So you're saying you don't feel challenged intellectually or physically by those around you? Then either the people around you are stupid and lazy or you're highly intelligent and physically active. Or you're just narcissistic and refuse to accept your own flaws and concentrate on flaws in others, leading to an elevation of yourself in relation to everyone else.
Yes that last part is what it's about really.
And I will say it's perhaps both sides of the story, my friends are lazy and stupid and spend money on things they can't afford but it was my flaw to be surrounded by these people as I had lots of fun with them in my teens and I'm done being all about fun I want set high goals and achieve them, sort of like aiming for the stars and landing on the clouds.
I'm not saying I'll get there but I'm saying I want to try and with my friends it's still about having fun and doing the least amount of effort necessary.
I'll invite them to join me going to a themepark or a fancy restaurant or even to another country and they love the idea but end up not going.
As for my workout partners I'm very spartan, and they want to be padded on the back for every half ass workout.
I just came back from a 15 mile run outside in 4 celcius on an empty stomache and feel like I could go again, but these friends would and did quit after a mile or two.
Nobody got a fitness model by doing half ass workouts so yes I do push them and try to find a balance in being a friend and a teacher.
The thought of me being the problem has occurred to me often, I criticize myself too much to be a true narcissistic but these people even if they do quit and don't achieve come back for more and actually recommend me to others, but this might just be flattery.
As for the education part, I never needed to excell to get where I wanted to be so it was easier for me to take the shortcut and have fun while doing it.
I didn't need to make anyone proud or impress people with a title as I'm loved and accepted no matter what really.
I went trough high school and community college with little to no effort and loved being lazy and still achieving high scores.
But now I'm ready for a challenge and to see if my intelligence does measure up and I expect to meet some ambitious people there as well.
