I have a really good friend, he is like a brother. The bad thing is I've kinda fallen for him(Never felt this way about a guy)....smh, I know. We are extremely affectionate both verbally and physically and have been even before I fell for him. It probably has something to do in how we met (wrestling team). He has spent the night at my house plenty of times opting to share my bed instead of the floor. He has been giving me mix signals almost from the time that I met him. From pinning me on the mat longer than usual or rather laying on me (crotch to crotch), Once he sent me a naked pic of his bro to my phone (excuse was that he was High). He tried to kiss(grab the back of my neck type) me once, if someone had tapped me on the back our lips would have met....oh how I regret not leaning in just a tad, but two other friends were around (blamed on weed and that it was a joke). He told me once that when he was Fucking a girl doggy style that he thought of me (didn't make an excuse but was extremely embarrassed after saying it). Another time while on a vacation trip with another friend (sleeping in the same bed again), 3am in the darkness he abruptly leans over me and asked me if I wanted him to rub Vicks chest rub on me- I of course said yes (our other friend was asleep). And well I think the clencher is that he pulled it out for me once when I had to pee and well my fingers were immobile (I had a four button fly and we were outside in the freezing cold of the night.) Yeah were extremely close, we call each other brother and I do consider him as such first and foremost. The thing is even with all these signals and actions on his part he always has a steady girl (or 2) along with other girls he is fuckin, he has gay bashed and on the two times I made major moves on him he gave me two differing responses. The first time i felt him up in his "sleep"- stroked him (got hard and had the slightest smile in his "sleep"). The second time was on that action trip when I drunkenly tried to feel him up while he was awake (my excuse was to return the favor for pulling it out for me earlier that night), he pushed my hand away. He distanced himself from me a while after that one, but we recently spoke on both situations and I apologized. The thing is the fact that he remembered the first feeling up confirmed my suspicion that be was awake. Personally I feel that he is atleast curious, but doesn't not want to be labeled as gay whether it be by others or himself. Please give me your thoughts on the situation- oh and by the way I did reciprocate the Vicks chest rub that night and one other night.