My name is Josh, and i have been in a relationship for 5 years. We have actually been together for 5 years but talking for 6 years. We have been engaged for 1 1/2 years. I love her, i really do, but for some reason all i have been able to think about for the past id say 6 months is how i dont know if i really want to spend the rest of my life with her, nor do i know how to bring it to her attention. Let me tell you a little bit about our relationship. Started off she was 105lbs, gorgeous, took care of her self, loved to have sex. Well about 1 year into our relationship, sex starting hurting really bad, when she had her periods she would cramp extremely bad. Her sex drive went down, because she didnt want to have sex due to the extreme pain. Went from having great intamicy to her never wanting it and crying when we did. So we went to the doctor and he diagnosed her with an extreme case of Endometriosis. She used to be very open with sex, would talk to me in the middle of the night for us to go hook up. Our first time was in the backseat of a vehicle that my friend drove around for 2 hrs, while we got it on. Now she doesnt like to talk about sex, kiss in front of people. Going off subject, but she says that she still finds me extremely attractive, yet she doesnt like to kiss whenever i have a beard because it is itchy, she doesnt like to recieve oral sex even though that's the only way that i can make her cum because of the disease. I honestly cant explain how many things we cant do in the bedroom, or things that bother her about it. Everything is always pre-planned, i have to say can we do it tonight, she will say No 99% of the time and when she does agree, it's I GUESS. When we do, do it, it has to be a quickie everytime. Other issues, she doesnt take care of herself. No matter where we would go when we first hooked up, she was always dressed to impress. Im talking hair done, make up on, dressed nice. She always got nails and pedicures, she took care of her weight. Now she's jumped to 155lbs, but weight is not an issue to me, i like the thickness. My main issue is that it bothers her, but she doesnt do anything to fix it. She now doesnt wear make up, she recently has had fits w/acne and constantly picks at it, so then it all stays there and more comes up. She never dresses up, ever. The last time i saw her wear make up was probably 4 months ago. We paid 360 bucks for a gym membership, but she doesnt go anymore after about a month. Well about 1 month ago, i told her im not happy, she said why, i told her most of these issues. Well i told her some things that i want to make the relationship, some consisted of sexual, some consisted of her taking care of herself. It lasted about 1 week. Now it's the same since. I love her, and want to be her provider, take care of her, but unfortunately, im not wanting to anymore. Here's the problem i have, If she had parents to go home and stay with, or friends, or just anything then it would be easier. If she had a job, to buy a apt, or anything, it would be easier.The problem that i run into is this. 1. Her father is passed away, all she has is her mother. Her mother has a boyfriend and they are about to move 2 hrs away. She has no friends, literally, no friends here in the city, all out of state. Her mother is currently staying in a 1 bd hotel until they sell their house and move. 2. She just reinstated in school, and has some bills in her name that i currently take care of. So i love her, and im going to feel bad if i just put her out with nothing. I need some guidance, she's 21, im 24. She's never been on her own, so i dont know how to break up w/someone 1. that i have been with for a long time 2. especially kicking them out whenever i love them and putting them through some of the hardest times of their life. Keep in mind, she is very hard to talk to. She get's very angry, and very sad. So it's hard to have a normal conversation. So what should i do? or, How could i make it work? Thanks!