icecracker: Here's the deal. I'm 19, been with my boy for 4 years. He's 22. We are not sexually active in any way shape or form. I'm not ready for it, physically or mentally, and we've talked about it a lot, and we're on the same page about it, so no worries there. But he's a big guy, and hung. I walked in on him while he was spankin the monkey(I jokingly asked him "what's up?"). I just saw this like 2 days ago, which is why I searched on the web and voila, here I am. At any rate, we talked a little while he was jacking (I was starving, and making dinner) and I asked him how big it was. So we measured it. 14 inches, by too much thickness. His dick is almost as thick as my wrist! Anyway, he's a big guy in general though. He's 6'8", caucasian and an insane workout buff. Me? Entirely not. I'm 5'5", skinny as hell Asian boy. I NEVER work out (I'm an artistic type and proud of it!). In fact we joke about how we're like a tree...he's "trunk" and I'm "twig". At any rate, I can see us possibly having problems in the future regarding sex. So we discuss it some more. He told me, sex doesn't matter as long as he can be with me, and I told him the same. But hell, I want to at least give it a shot if I can! I've actually been practicing/pleasuring myself for a couple of years now, but I don't think it's going well...I'm only using fingers at the moment (and lube of course!). Rarely, on a good day, I can get 2 fingers in. But often, even after lots of massaging, relaxing, patience, I still struggle with 1! So then I'm thinking...gigantic dick? Um...yeah, that's probably not going to work. After 4 years, I don't think anal sex (lookin forward to oral though!) or lack thereof will put a strain on our relationship. But like I said, I want to give it a shot if I can, but I need some advice. I really care about him, and want to do the best for him that I can. Not to mention I want him inside me! I'd like for him to be the first non-finger to violate my insides, but I have a feeling I'm going to need more practice than that. Other tips? I've been reading here about these "poppers", but don't know where to get 'em, side effects (are they harmful?), or what the hey the hooplah. (I'm drug-free too, so if they're something addictive, I'm gonig to steer clear). Soooo...any suggestions and stuff will be appreciated. Thanks yo!