I have paid back a lot of debts this past week, in no way am I close to settling my debt with my mom but it feels really good to finally be able to give her something. I know disability won't give me much but it will enable me to make a budget for the first time in a very long time. I've also been able to buy a few things I have wanted to replace for a while and some I desperately needed to replace (undergarments and personal care items). It's been a long journey for me the past couple of years. I finally feel like I have some real hope back in my life. Even if my condition improves even lets say 30% it is so much more progress than where I am at physically now. I don't know what my future holds but hopefully some happiness and some simplicity would love to have some security finally as well! Anyhow, I am feeling pretty happy and greatful at the moment. I wanted to thank those who have been so supportive of everything here. Especially, njqt she has been a rock for me and a true friend who can understand many of the things I am/have been going through on a personal level.